"You can do law. Or journalism. Something along that line."
What happened to the childhood world of 'You can be anything, as long as you believe?'
Really though, reality is such that there are prerequisites for anything you wish to do. I'm at such a disadvantage really, as compared to my peers. I don't know what I want to do in life, I don't have any solid aspirations for my 'dream Uni course'. I'm just a teenager, lost in between the conflicting worlds of fantasy and reality. What am I supposed to do, God? My friends here, they know what they want to do, their pathway for them seems so...clear. They know their goal in life and they plan early for it. They have their dream jobs in their minds, at such a young age, and take the subjects to begin their long journey ahead. Me? I've spent too much time dreaming about the novelty of various jobs, never once has ANY job idea ever made me go, 'OH I want to do that!'. So here I am now, doing subjects that others would consider 'easy', with not much interest in the occupations that stem from these.

This is the bad thing about not having compulsory subjects (with the exception of english and math) I guess. You can choose freely, but you have to be careful about it. My friends spent 3 years thinking about their future, I spent 30 minutes thinking before being rushed to fill out a form. Not that I don't like my subjects, I really do, but why is it that whenever I think about Uni courses or my job in the future, I feel an impenetrable sense of dread?

God, I so very badly want to find an aspiration for my life. I'm just so...clueless right now. It just feels like the phrase I've always said - '...when I grow up' is happening right now, and I feel like I am being thrust headfirst with not a clue where I am going. My job options are hard pressed upon me, and I just know that you have something better for me than just these two occupations. I just want so much find an aspiration that I can look forward to and be excited for. This is so hard, God. I'm feeling blindly through a dark hallway and I can't see what's at the end. I need some light oh God, I do so want to believe that you will lead me on to a path that I have the passion for. I want a job that I can look forward to and shine for you. I want it so badly.

Help me God, that even if I land up in a job that I might not like now, that you will give me an open heart to accept it and grant me peace in my heart to know that you will be there to help me through. I need your guidance so badly God.

Thank you God.