Hello God!
JOE PASSED AWAY!
:((((
I am so SAD. It has only been three months!

Ethan wrote a 'death certificate' for it.
I reads (I am copying off the paper stuck on the wall):

This messages is to our beloved Joe Lee which was our first hamster that lived with us.
RIP
JOE LEE.
Details on how he looked like when he died > He was curled up in a ball and sleeping. He was in a food bowl when found dead. There were disgusting flies over it and the hamster smelled bad.
The Death Certificate of Joe Lee.
Hope you RIP.

Yes, I know this sounds like a half-coroner's report and a half-headstone reading, not like a death certificate at all which always includes at least the date of death.
But my brother had good intentions.

What I have experienced only reaffirms that:
Nothing in this world ever lasts forever. Worldly possessions are not worth coveting about, because they are only temporary, but I will still miss Joe.
Oh, I feel a little bit emotional while typing this. He went to sleep yesterday afternoon. This morning I went to his playhouse to say good morning to him and I was slightly puzzled at why he was not inside. Then I remembered.

Sigh.

Nevermind! Yun Ying and I have been practising really hard for a recording session of my latest song 'He Cares'. It really reflects what to do in times of need.

MYE is like in a few weeks. I feel so overwhelmed. I still don't remember the literature TEQA sequence and format + not enough practice in class; I don't know whether I can remember all my formats for History; I am not good with the sihan/gonghan formats; My english summary keeps failing; my maths chapter 3 is simply horrible.

God HELP me.
I want to do very well. :D

HELLO EVERYONE!
I GOT 125 MARKS FOR PIANO EXAM! (Merit)
PRAISE BE TO GOD!
WOOHOO!

Hi God,
I am 'painting' my nails with water that has a slightly orange tinge, leftover from my watercolour painting.
No, this is not breaking school rules, but because I can't find a time to walk all the way to the nearest toilet (which isn't all that near) to dump it away. Anyway, the water dries up as soon as it is applied. What's left behind - nothing.
It is fun!

I would like to write a half-post to my friend, who is sitting next to me now but anyway:

Hello Bump,
Thank you for being so understanding (which is very hard, I know.), and I appreciate you for being a true friend - you have passed the test! Because a true friend is one who knows (and dares!) to let go of their own. Thank you thank you thank you! You are indeed one of a kind. God bless you in EVERYTHING you do, and may you ALWAYS be happy. :D

Last night I read Elizabeth George's 'A young woman's walk with God' on the topic of Gentleness. Gentleness, is one of the fruit of the Spirit.
It is the 'Fruit of Power' because having a gentle heart is NOT as easy as it sounds.

Possessing gentleness means to 'take it'. To be able to withstand cold stares, mean words and harsh actions from others - while at the same time, refusing to be angry or impatient, refusing to rebut or retaliate. To undergo tremendous pressure, at the same time to have that never-ending trust in God as well as absolutely refuse to complain. Gentleness is MEEKNESS, not WEAKNESS.

What a hard but fulfilling fruit to master! The bible says, these hearts with this fruit of gentleness are indeed rare and hard-to-find, but those who possess it glimmer like the most beautiful gems and jewels in all the earth.

There was A LOT in the chapter, but it ended with a list of what you should do today to achieve gentleness.
Here it is:
1. Pray for gentleness
2. Trust in the Lord
3. Refuse to be angry/irritated at ANYONE (Friends, Parents, Siblings, Grandparents etc.)
4. Refuse to complain about ANYTHING (amount of homework, how hard a test was etc, because complaining shows distrust in the Lord and his plans for you and your future.)

Alrights, PBL now.
GTG!
<3

Hi God!
Yes this week of 'holiday-ing' is almost over.
In a few hours my March 'holiday' is going to end.

And no, I am not sad.
Thank you for this week, because it has helped me to recuperate from the stresses of schoolwork and school life. It has given me another approach to many things, basically.

I am rather looking forward to another new term!
This term I shall focus more on studying and doing your work.

Aunt came back from Wisconsin yesterday and she got me a glossy purple diary!
Thank you, Aunt!
I shall use it when I am done with the the spongy turquoise one.

Oh, today Pastor talked about the sixth commandment in the Old Testament.
It says 'You shall not Murder.'
Like everyone else, I thought, that should be a rather easy commandment to live by.
But boy!
I was once again reminded that 'hating your fellow brothers and sisters (or friends, if you choose to say it that way)' is just as bad as murder.

What a timely reminder.
Thanks God.

Been trying to compose a new piece, 'Companion' .
However, I did not really have the time to get myself calmed down on the piano bench to think and well, receive the parts for the piece. I hope I can find some time to do so, I am so excited to see how this one will sound like in the end. :D

Okay, Gtg.
Bye! <333333333333333


'Jesus, I will live for you, in everything I do.
I'm holding on to you, always.
Always and Forever.'

"I am not going to apologise for speaking the name of Jesus,
I am not going to justify my faith to them,
and I am not going to hide the light that God has put into me.
If I have to sacrifice everything... I will."
-Rachel Joy Scott

Hey God! :D
I need a little help with my homework.
I need to complete them quickly, or else I won't have time to do other things!!! D:

I re-read 'Rachel's Tears'.
It is such an inspirational book!
Rachel has such a deep relationship with you, I am so glad I will get to see her in heaven!
Thank you for Aunty Nancy, who gave me this book.
After reading it, I am once again extremely happy that YOU are my friend. :D

Oh, I got in to the chinese tuition!
HAPPY!
Except, there will be more homework from now on.

Alrights, haha I have to get back to work.

Your child,
Claire.

Hello God,
I got back my papers!!
Most of them are quite good, except I have to work more on my chinese. :(
Anyway, thank you God for my good results! Praise the lord, for I got a B3 for math and didn't fail! :D

I made pizza during Home Economics on Tuesday. I was so proud of myself, it actually tasted good! Haha, this term's Home Econs is so interesting. Baking!!! <3 I had never baked before term started.

Things are not working out very well in school. I just don't understand.
God, I know I am not perfect, I am human. I make mistakes. Just because I am a Christian does not mean I am saint-like, maintaining a total loss of sin in my life. Oh God, the stress of studies and CCAs as well as the latest crash of my TPC motherboard is already making me feel a little depressed, and with this to deal with, I feel so disappointed. I can't let this happen God, please help me.

Help me to have a greater love for others. Like you unconditionally love me although I disappoint and annoy you over and over again. Please help me love them with your love.

Thank you G.
love, Claire.

Hello God!
Yes.
I really need to trust you, as in like not worry too much. My badbadbad habit of worrying without rhyme or reason has to change. I pretty much worry about everything - my family, studies, homework, tuition, piano lessons and exams, friends, teachers, school life... well you get the point.

Worrying overboard just shows how much I am lacking in faith. Faith is a vital Fruit of the Spirit, invaluable in the Christian lifestyle. 'For without faith, it is hard to please God', says the bible, but I keep worrying. I HAVE to stop this, I have to learn to take a step back from the motor of my life.

Okay from NOW onwards, I am going to let YOU be the motor of my life.

"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23

HELLO GOD!

PIANO EXAM IS OVER!

Haha, I am so relieved. Its up to you, G, now. Help me get a Merit at least! :D
Tomorrow I shall go and join the others at LB for CIP. Today after piano exam, we went to scout around the place. The centre looks small on the outside, but there its air-conditioned I think, the whole place is all covered up, windows and doors.

Too bad there is no piano there. Thus I guess I will just play my pianica then.
It is better than shrieking my lungs out on a recorder.
:D

Okay, off to make the most of my time.
:D
Luv ya.