I absolutely have to record this down if not I'm really going to regret it. :)

SYF 2011 was the best thing that ever happened in my life so far.

Practising for the judging, I remember my struggle with all the actions, as well as a kind of endless longing for the agility and bodily coordination that others seemed to have naturally. :)

It wasn't an easy feat - more so for the people who were trying to correct me. :( Yet thank you God, for such kindly seniors, who never lost patience with my blundering self and took it upon themselves to guide me and help me improve. Thank you for my dearest friends, who fiercely tried to defend me from feeling like the worst dancer in history and always being there for a little pep talk.

On the day itself, 29th of March 2011, I was really nervous. I remember just seconds before the announcer called us out onto the stage, I psychologically felt that my pants were too loose. My partner (Oh, God bless her!) tried to comfort me and checked my knot. :) And then we were off. As the music started, I realised I had been holding my breath. I let it out in one flush and prayed hard.

Later in the foyer, people kept coming up to us (seniors from years back, teachers, juniors, parents) and they said it was flawless and very touching! Which was quite comforting. Thank you God!

Okay somehow, I felt later that YOU had been placing a 'veil of flawlessness' in front of us that displayed nothing but perfection because we worked hard and you love us so much. And so I think this was the revolution that happened that day. :)

Anyway we all gave our superb best and now... TIME FOR THE RESULTS (GIVEN TODAY)
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GOLD, WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I wasn't present with them to collect the results as I was at the orthodontist, but as soon as I received amy's message I ran around the house screaming, my mom too, and we hugged and danced around the house. :))))

YES WE DID IT, CREDITS TO THE EXTREMELY DIFFICULT PLANNING AND DETERMINATION OF OUR DEAR SEC 4s AND TO OUR HARD WORK.

And of course to God, of whom carrying this out successfully would have been utterly impossible. :)

God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me!
He will be my guide, hold me closely to his side.
With love and strength for each new day,
He will make a way...
Yes he will make a way!

Oh what a lovely and spirit-lifting song! :)

I was reading up on Acids, Bases and Salts - which I didn't get it. I was really wondering 'Why do we even have to study this?'
I mean, I get the facts and stuff, but I really can't see the big picture, how all these figures and concepts even go with each other.
Ionic equations, atomic structure, theory after theory of elements and substances, all these are so familiar yet alien.

I have had rather distressing moments in this course of getting acquainted with chemistry. Chemistry practicals in the lab are always stressful, suddenly new words and definitions would pop out from my teacher and I would be there going 'Ahh! I don't remember learning that?! Ohno why is everything so hazy?' and then I would be agonizing over my apparent ignorance.

So then I google-d 'what is chemistry' and up popped a link on 'ten ways to pass your next chemistry exam'. I read it and sighed again. Tearing my eyes away from the computer screen I glanced at my list of the Ten commandments and a little note I had written last year about 'How to be successful in life' from one of the church sermons.

Then it hit me.

We don't have to be good in everthing, we don't even have to worry about anything, simply because the things that we face here in this earth don't even count a thing in the eternal perspective!
Chemistry - and the problems that come along with it - is just a little speck of dust on a windowpane. One day I'm going to look back at my life and laugh at my foolishness for all those hours of worry spent on my studies.
Life should be seen in the eternal perspective. Can you imagine that this life on earth - about seventy years or so, is barely even a grain of rice as compared to a whole barrel-full?
I find it hard to imagine that I agonize over something so minute in the heavenly realm, that something this insignificant can suck the energy and life out of me.
Here's something else I realized: Schoolwork, results, exams and tests won't count a thing when we get to heaven. There isn't such a thing as passing an exam to go to heaven. In fact, we've already earned highest honours - just because we are God's children, whom he loves so much and will honour - as long as we please him in what we do!

This is such a wonderful thought.

Dear God, I pray with all my heart that I'll go about everyday, living life with the conviction of who I am in Christ and with the confidence of having you, my 24/7 guardian always by my side. I sincerly apologise from the bottom of my heart for all the nasty things I've done and the doubtful thoughts I've considered. I pray that I'll seek to find joy in every single day, just because everyday is a gift from you to live. May you help to remove any challenge/obstacle that might blind me from that knowledge and that I'll live every single moment with the goal of reaching your Heart and becoming more and more like you. Help me to find time and importance in the things that matter to you and to give less to those that don't. Protect me, O lord, that I may ALWAYS see the things of this world in this light.
Amen.

Oh God above, is it your will to have me experience this?
How much longer will it last?
It hurts too much and I just don't think I can hold on.
Deliver me, I pray.

Save me.

Love you so much,
Claire Lee