Dear God,
I need your help urgently. :(

I'm starting grade 8 piano lessons again this saturday, and I'm really out-of-shape, both in my playing and in my attitude towards it.

As you know, I failed my exam last year, and since then I kind of lost my motivation or passion to play.
Right now I'm being given a second chance, but I'm dubious about this. It would be so much easier to let go, give up and move on, rather than go through the hard process all over again. I know I'm not a quitter, and it's painful to succumb to such a mentality, but attaining a pass for this grade just seems such a mountainous task, even more unattainable than before.

I'm discouraged, God, and I want my love for music back. I want to get back up and flourish again, but I need your help so badly. I've been unable to compose recently, and practising has gotten me nowhere these past couple of weeks. It's not just physical, God, there's some sort of doubt monster, or emotional barrier that's been haunting me ever since my failure, and I need you to break it for me.

Jesus broke the chains of sin and death, he overcame them. Now I want to draw on his strength to overcome failure.

I believe that you've given me a gift in music, and I don't want to shun it and forgo the chance of shining for you, but I NEED the love for this instrument back, SO SO BADLY. Mom says "Bounce back from failure, where is your perseverance and determination?", but it's easier said than done.

So I need a favour God. I know you can hear me. You say in your word "I will bless those who love me, I will grant them their hearts' desires." I love you so much God, and my desire is to get back on track in my piano playing, better than ever, stronger than ever, where my love for the instrument and music in general fuels brighter than ever before.

Help me God. Please.
Love,
Claire

Dear God,
You are so so good. :)
Indeed the verse that says 'your rod and staff will comfort me' is true.
Everything really is made good in your time.

When I was lonely at school and cried out to you for one friend, you brought me not one friend, but five.

When I missed my youth group and church pals back home, you brought me the link to dear dear Charlotte's blog.

When I wished for an older sister, you brought me two new amazing, caring older sister-figures here in church, and reminded me of those back home.

When I pined for my cousins, you linked us up through facebook and twitter.

When I was stuck in my assignments I cried out to you and you gave me wisdom and your peace.

When I began to miss my dad, you arranged it such that the very next day my mom told us he was coming to visit for a week.


How good you are Jesus! Immeasurable you are, in your faithfulness and love!
Love you so much.

Claire