Diaries. I've always kept diaries where I've written prayers in the form of journal entries, emails, or letters addressed to God. These books are where I've shared my innermost feelings to God and is the place where I am utterly honest. :)
Quite recently I have been preoccupied by other worldly distractions and have momentarily ceased to write in my diary to God. Watching a little trailer of 'Letters to God', I have realised how special this habit of mine is, and it jolted me to get moving again.
So anyway I thought I would share with you guys my diaries over the ages, also to store away these memories in case I lose any of them as time passes by. :)
My diary when I was 7 to 8 years old: "Talking to Jesus Diary"
This was a simple journal type diary, of a material and colour similar to a school exercise book. The design is 'Classic Pooh', and I remember selecting this book in the gift store then because of a little slogan found on the cover and the back of the book - "Sometimes a day without rush is the best sort of day" - I couldn't agree more!
My diary when I was 9 to 11 years old:
This was a blue-spiralled notebook, white on the cover with pink trimmings all around - the classical 'sweet' diary. There was a slogan on the top that read "This is a rare gift from God". I remember that I only used shiny pen ink to write in the diary, my utmost favourite colour being shimmery orange. I even wrote my weekly schedule in the back cover! :)
My diary when I was 12 to 13 years old ( I started writing much more):
This was a grey paper notebook, wrapped with a beautifully soft and turquoise book- wrap, with 'Frank the Hippopotamus'' face on the front. I remember I got this in Guardian (the wellness shop) at the mall and selected this one because of its unique cover. This book is special content-wise as it recounts my PSLE year, my first encounters with the down-side of puberty (first period), my introduction to secondary school life, and many many other 'firsts' at that point in my life.
My diary when I was 14 to 15 years old (which is up till the present):
This is a glossy purple diary that comes with a lock and two keys, air flown from Wisconsin from my loving aunt. It is the shimmiest, shiniest, most glaring diary I have ever owned and I have filled it with numerous accounts. It hold memories of my whole entire braces episode, my first church camp as a teenager and the transition from lower to upper secondary, a trying period for me. :)
When I turn 16, I will get a new diary, as my current one is getting a bit to thin to hold out another year. :)
I am proud of my diaries, they hold so much meaning for me and I encourage you all to pick up such a habit; it is interesting to see how much you and your faith in the Lord has grown after a while! Reading past entries never fails to show how almighty God is as well as how everlasting his grace is. After all, His grace is always sufficient, isn't it? :D
Since it is such a beautiful date I'm going to make a special prayer cum wish to God:
Dear God,
It's 11 November 2011, and it is officially the 5,761 day of my life.
Over these years, I have grown under your love and grace.
But if there is one thing I would like to ask of you this day, it would be to learn to love myself.
I am not really pleased with myself, God, it may be because I'm currently under going some changes, but I feel weird, awkward even, about my appearance, and I have to admit that I never really feel good about the way I look.
So I pray that you'll help me understand and grasp hold of the fact that I am your precious creation, and let me see myself in a new light. Change the shy, insecure Claire into a confident, joyful one. Give me the courage to reach out to others.
Give me courage to accept the things I cannot change, a teachable heart to mend those I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Give me
confidence, God.
Currently, going through such a phase in life isn't easy. I'm struggling with my physical appearance, my emotions, my thoughts. Help me also to accept the fact that I am growing up, and to embrace the future with the hope of your guiding hand that will be with me, instead of having an escapist mentality of always wanting to stay a kid.
Make me a better person, inside and out, and I pray with all my heart that you'll use me as a vessel of joy, love and inspiration to others for your Namesake.
Amen.
Hi! I haven't blogged in a long while.
After a long long period of preparation, the Chinese 'O' Level Papers are finally over!
And it's November now, which also means my departure is so very near...
This Sunday is my last time singing in the ELMM choir, most unfortunately. I have loved it so much, it is so so marvellous and exciting to be part of the team that leads the congregation in worship for God! Thank God for the fact that the songs about to be sung this weekend are my favourites! Hopefully I can continue serving the Lord!
Tomorrow is a special day - 11/11/11, also the day of the event "To Singapore with Love". It is a time when Christians all over Singapore pray, wherever we may be. There will be two waves, 11 am and 11 pm. When the clock strikes 11 both times, all christians should join in by praying a personal prayer of blessing to Singapore.
If you are a christian, I greatly encourage you to take part! Set your alarms to ring at the stipulated timeslots and participate in such a wonderful event!
Proverbs 11:11 says—By the blessing of the upright, a city is exalted.
Imagine God's people passionately flooding our city with life-giving prayers of blessing!
HERE ARE THE DETAILS EVERYONE!!!
WHEN? 11.11.11
First Wave: 11 am
Second Wave: 11 pm
HOW? Simple. Spontaneous. Synchronised.
Christians everywhere pray 11 minutes for our city-state.
Key Point: Speak Blessings!
Key Phrase: In the name of Jesus, we bless Singapore…
Pray in agreement.
Go viral!
Facebook, Twitter.
Call, Skype, SMS.
WHY? Because we love God.
We love Singapore.
:)
Tomorrow, I'm going book shopping with my mum and bro! Going to finally check out Spiral, the fifth instalment in the Tunnels series. I haven't read it yet and I'm craving to do so! :)))
See you guys soon!
