God's little princess....

The Doubt Monster

2012-01-30T01:15:00.003-05:00

I can't even remember what was said about my singing abilities.
All I remember was that my mom told me I shouldn't be focusing so much on the area that I wasn't as talented in, and immediately the doubt monster took the opportunity to creep up on me, my feelings and my self-assurance.

I love singing, as well as music in general. I wanted so badly to join the school choir. But when those feelings of doubt came upon me, I suddenly doubted my ability to sing. I felt terribly lame and inferior to the singers/vocalists in church as well as in school. I didn't dare to go for the choir audition, and just stuck to piano. As ashamed as I was for being a chicken, two conflicting sentences were whirling around in my mind. 'Why am I doubting my ability?' and 'Do I even have any ability to doubt?', the second one obviously being the doubt monster at work. My mom, to her defense, never said that I couldn't sing, she just said that I should focus more on my piano, which has always been my strength.

This is how easy it is for God's people to doubt themselves. The bible says that the devil comes to 'kill, steal and destroy' - our homes, our lives and our self-esteem.

Psalm 139:13-14 says:

"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

1 Peter 3:3-4 says:

"Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious."

Isaiah 43:4 says:

"...you are precious in my eyes, honoured, and I love you."

I like to think that with God's help, I can do anything. Reading these verses just make me feel so warm and happy, instead of feeling empty and worthless when the doubt monster attacks. I have learnt, that we have to be careful, for the devil will make use of this 'doubt monster' to attack our self-confidence, and cause us to waste energy, emotions and time on being unhappy with ourselves.

I just had my choir audition today, and I got in to the Senior Girls' choir, Cantabile, where I will be both choir member and accompanist. Isn't God good?

Now there is one last thing I have to do:
I rebuke you, in Jesus Name, 'doubt monster'. You will never, ever be in the way of me serving the Lord with the gifts God has given me, and I will not let you affect the way I look at myself. For I am fearfully and wondefully made by God Himself, blessed abundantly with musical gifts, (which definitely includes singing). God loves me, loves how I sing and I am so sure of it. So move aside, in Jesus Name I pray. I have no room in my mind or heart for you.

:)

Limited Pathways

2012-01-29T05:06:00.002-05:00

"You can do law. Or journalism. Something along that line."
What happened to the childhood world of 'You can be anything, as long as you believe?'
Really though, reality is such that there are prerequisites for anything you wish to do. I'm at such a disadvantage really, as compared to my peers. I don't know what I want to do in life, I don't have any solid aspirations for my 'dream Uni course'. I'm just a teenager, lost in between the conflicting worlds of fantasy and reality. What am I supposed to do, God? My friends here, they know what they want to do, their pathway for them seems so...clear. They know their goal in life and they plan early for it. They have their dream jobs in their minds, at such a young age, and take the subjects to begin their long journey ahead. Me? I've spent too much time dreaming about the novelty of various jobs, never once has ANY job idea ever made me go, 'OH I want to do that!'. So here I am now, doing subjects that others would consider 'easy', with not much interest in the occupations that stem from these.

This is the bad thing about not having compulsory subjects (with the exception of english and math) I guess. You can choose freely, but you have to be careful about it. My friends spent 3 years thinking about their future, I spent 30 minutes thinking before being rushed to fill out a form. Not that I don't like my subjects, I really do, but why is it that whenever I think about Uni courses or my job in the future, I feel an impenetrable sense of dread?

God, I so very badly want to find an aspiration for my life. I'm just so...clueless right now. It just feels like the phrase I've always said - '...when I grow up' is happening right now, and I feel like I am being thrust headfirst with not a clue where I am going. My job options are hard pressed upon me, and I just know that you have something better for me than just these two occupations. I just want so much find an aspiration that I can look forward to and be excited for. This is so hard, God. I'm feeling blindly through a dark hallway and I can't see what's at the end. I need some light oh God, I do so want to believe that you will lead me on to a path that I have the passion for. I want a job that I can look forward to and shine for you. I want it so badly.

Help me God, that even if I land up in a job that I might not like now, that you will give me an open heart to accept it and grant me peace in my heart to know that you will be there to help me through. I need your guidance so badly God.

Thank you God.

2011-11-23T04:31:00.008-05:00

Diaries. I've always kept diaries where I've written prayers in the form of journal entries, emails, or letters addressed to God. These books are where I've shared my innermost feelings to God and is the place where I am utterly honest. :)

Quite recently I have been preoccupied by other worldly distractions and have momentarily ceased to write in my diary to God. Watching a little trailer of 'Letters to God', I have realised how special this habit of mine is, and it jolted me to get moving again.

So anyway I thought I would share with you guys my diaries over the ages, also to store away these memories in case I lose any of them as time passes by. :)

My diary when I was 7 to 8 years old: "Talking to Jesus Diary"

This was a simple journal type diary, of a material and colour similar to a school exercise book. The design is 'Classic Pooh', and I remember selecting this book in the gift store then because of a little slogan found on the cover and the back of the book - "Sometimes a day without rush is the best sort of day" - I couldn't agree more!

My diary when I was 9 to 11 years old:

This was a blue-spiralled notebook, white on the cover with pink trimmings all around - the classical 'sweet' diary. There was a slogan on the top that read "This is a rare gift from God". I remember that I only used shiny pen ink to write in the diary, my utmost favourite colour being shimmery orange. I even wrote my weekly schedule in the back cover! :)

My diary when I was 12 to 13 years old ( I started writing much more):

This was a grey paper notebook, wrapped with a beautifully soft and turquoise book- wrap, with 'Frank the Hippopotamus'' face on the front. I remember I got this in Guardian (the wellness shop) at the mall and selected this one because of its unique cover. This book is special content-wise as it recounts my PSLE year, my first encounters with the down-side of puberty (first period), my introduction to secondary school life, and many many other 'firsts' at that point in my life.

My diary when I was 14 to 15 years old (which is up till the present):

This is a glossy purple diary that comes with a lock and two keys, air flown from Wisconsin from my loving aunt. It is the shimmiest, shiniest, most glaring diary I have ever owned and I have filled it with numerous accounts. It hold memories of my whole entire braces episode, my first church camp as a teenager and the transition from lower to upper secondary, a trying period for me. :)

When I turn 16, I will get a new diary, as my current one is getting a bit to thin to hold out another year. :)
I am proud of my diaries, they hold so much meaning for me and I encourage you all to pick up such a habit; it is interesting to see how much you and your faith in the Lord has grown after a while! Reading past entries never fails to show how almighty God is as well as how everlasting his grace is. After all, His grace is always sufficient, isn't it? :D

11.11.11

2011-11-11T02:22:00.002-05:00

Since it is such a beautiful date I'm going to make a special prayer cum wish to God:

Dear God,
It's 11 November 2011, and it is officially the 5,761 day of my life.
Over these years, I have grown under your love and grace.
But if there is one thing I would like to ask of you this day, it would be to learn to love myself.

I am not really pleased with myself, God, it may be because I'm currently under going some changes, but I feel weird, awkward even, about my appearance, and I have to admit that I never really feel good about the way I look.

So I pray that you'll help me understand and grasp hold of the fact that I am your precious creation, and let me see myself in a new light. Change the shy, insecure Claire into a confident, joyful one. Give me the courage to reach out to others.

Give me courage to accept the things I cannot change, a teachable heart to mend those I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Give me confidence, God.

Currently, going through such a phase in life isn't easy. I'm struggling with my physical appearance, my emotions, my thoughts. Help me also to accept the fact that I am growing up, and to embrace the future with the hope of your guiding hand that will be with me, instead of having an escapist mentality of always wanting to stay a kid.

Make me a better person, inside and out, and I pray with all my heart that you'll use me as a vessel of joy, love and inspiration to others for your Namesake.

Amen.

2011-11-10T10:32:00.002-05:00

Hi! I haven't blogged in a long while.
After a long long period of preparation, the Chinese 'O' Level Papers are finally over!
And it's November now, which also means my departure is so very near...

This Sunday is my last time singing in the ELMM choir, most unfortunately. I have loved it so much, it is so so marvellous and exciting to be part of the team that leads the congregation in worship for God! Thank God for the fact that the songs about to be sung this weekend are my favourites! Hopefully I can continue serving the Lord!

Tomorrow is a special day - 11/11/11, also the day of the event "To Singapore with Love". It is a time when Christians all over Singapore pray, wherever we may be. There will be two waves, 11 am and 11 pm. When the clock strikes 11 both times, all christians should join in by praying a personal prayer of blessing to Singapore.

If you are a christian, I greatly encourage you to take part! Set your alarms to ring at the stipulated timeslots and participate in such a wonderful event!
Proverbs 11:11 says—By the blessing of the upright, a city is exalted.
Imagine God's people passionately flooding our city with life-giving prayers of blessing!

HERE ARE THE DETAILS EVERYONE!!!

WHEN?

11.11.11

First Wave: 11 am

Second Wave: 11 pm

HOW?

Simple. Spontaneous. Synchronised.

Christians everywhere pray 11 minutes for our city-state.

Key Point: Speak Blessings!

Key Phrase: In the name of Jesus, we bless Singapore…

Pray in agreement.

Go viral!

Facebook, Twitter.

Call, Skype, SMS.

WHY?

Because we love God.

We love Singapore.

:)

Tomorrow, I'm going book shopping with my mum and bro! Going to finally check out Spiral, the fifth instalment in the Tunnels series. I haven't read it yet and I'm craving to do so! :)))

See you guys soon!

Bible expedition!

2011-09-12T09:10:00.002-04:00

Hi God,
I'm really glad that you're making yourself visible to me (in the spiritual sense). I'm really glad that you're working in the lives of the people I've been praying for, it is really encouraging to my heart to see a change in these people, a change in which only you can bring about.

Starting tonight, I'm starting a 'Bible expedition' to really systematically read the bible each night! I'll start from Genesis and (hopefully) end at Revelations. From past experiences, this has never really worked because of my impatient nature of skipping books. :P
But I'll really put my mind to it this time!

Do continue to be with me God, through these testing weeks of exam preparations, crazy periods of stress, homework, papers, and even through this time help me to touch others for you and grow in my faith for you.

Thank you for giving me the confidence to go about everyday! :)

Exam Preparations

2011-09-08T10:32:00.002-04:00

Hi God,
I've activated 'Stay Focused Extention' on my google chrome, to encourage myself to keep working without getting distracted!
But I'm really worried God, all my other friends and classmates already have study timetables and plans for revision, but I don't have any yet!

All I've been able to do this term break is mainly just holiday homework, nothing more! :(
And I'm afraid that I won't be able to complete my revision on time.

God do help me please, help me get a good report card at the end of the year!

:)

September Holidays

2011-09-07T23:38:00.005-04:00

September Holidays are here!
And, of course, holiday homework.

1. Chemistry Worksheet on Metals and Reactivity [DONE]
2. 2010 Chemistry Past Year Paper
3. Chemistry Project
4. E Math Exercise 6.1
5. E Math Exercise 6.2
6. E Math Exercise 6.3
7. E Math Exercise 10.4
8. A Math Exercise 7.1 [DONE]
9. SS YAPT Stage 4 [DONE]
10. SS Usefulness assignment
11. Graphic Organiser for Chapter 2 [DONE]
12. Study for SS class test in T4W1
13. One chinese 'zuowen'
14. One chinese 'ying yong wen'
15. Chinese Paper 2

AHHHHHH how do I finish all these?
Actually I only started my homework yesterday, because the previous few days were spent practising piano for my exam. :(
GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!

13 days!

2011-08-23T05:26:00.003-04:00

13 days.
That's time left before my Grade 8 Piano Examinations.
I had chosen to do my 8th Grade in six months, rather than a year, and what I'm looking at right now is an unfinished coverage of syllabus, and a lack of quality during practice.

Am I nervous, or even the slightest bit scared? Definitely.
Am I sure that God will help me through this? Absolutely.

My decision may be seen as an incredulously foolish decision, but I believe this is a marvellous opportunity to proclaim the awesomeness of God and how puny our thoughts are, about God.

Even as I'm trying my best to practice real hard, setbacks are aplenty, and it is difficult. But stumbling upon this verse again really helped me, it's such a beautiful verse!

"You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is set on you, because he trusts in You."

I wrote this down on a little card to encourage myself. How wonderful it is to know that God is always there for me whenever I need Him! :)

And so the next time my left hand refuses to cooperate, or when I just can't hit the timing on the metronome, I'll always keep in mind this verse and marvel at the sovereignty of God in his glory. :))))) <3

Maybe you can try applying this verse to your life - in your next exam, test or maybe just a dreaded visit to the dentist, you can be sure that if you trust God to take you through, he'll never let your heart experience more that it can take, and that you will be kept in PERFECT PEACE. :)

2011-08-15T07:11:00.003-04:00

I don't know how or why, but recently I feel like I'm distant to you God.
I'm lacking that passion that I've always had, and no matter how hard I try to reach out to you, to keep praying, to read my devotionals and bible consistently, I don't feel that special connection in my heart.

What's happening God? It's as if my heart has grown cold, indifferent, about you. This isn't good! Please please draw close to me God, I want to be in touch with you again. All I want is to be ignited for you, to show others the passion that I have for you, and the joy that feeling your presence brings.

All I need is you, Lord, please help me today.

2011-07-30T10:42:00.002-04:00

Life may not be perfect, but it sure is wonderful!

It's weird to think of it that way, isn't it?
We get too wrapped up with our short term itineries, worrying ourselves over the smallest things. When hard times come, we immediately lock ourselves in - with the struggle, forgetting totally what really matters most and the ultimate source of help. Silly, isn't it?

Well, recently I've been struck by a verse: 'You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You'.

It's really beautiful to think that we can actually forget about the troubles and things of this world and just concentrate on a more important, more pleasant thing, or should I say, person - GOD.

So the next time you start getting worried about something, think about this verse. :)

2011-06-22T11:14:00.002-04:00

Dear God,
Please please please help me finish my holiday homework on time!

With lots of love,
Claire.

2011-05-06T03:36:00.002-04:00

Why do things seem
So unfair at times?
Was it me?
Was fault mine?
"I hope not",
We'll say with a sigh.

Could we perhaps
learn to love,
and care for others
just like how -
God cared for the outcasts
the sorrowful and poor.
He never judged them,
in better or worse.

Could we perhaps
be more like Him,
helping others -
those in need?

Could we perhaps
learn to share,
all that's given -
and not compare?

Could we perhaps
try some day,
to live life in full -
and not complain?

Could we perhaps
try to see,
the goodness of life -
and all that's glee?

Troubles may come
Oh yes they will,
leaving you sometimes -
alone and hurt.

Who's at fault?
You might say.
But blame doesn't take
your problems away.

Life is full of ups and downs,
But with our God,
'ups' are always in abound.
The 'downs' are never easy,
but who can stay sadly
when the King of the world
would receive you gladly?

I must therefore conclude,
that though times are hard,
never lose heart -
The Lord Almighty -
will always be your guard!
Learn to be someone that cares,
Endears and shares,
these are the qualities
of our Good Lord and friend.

- 'Look to Him for what to do'
Claire Lee

2011-04-19T09:37:00.002-04:00

3S2 2011, I LOVE YOU!! :)))
Have been feeling this uncontainable love for my class ever since HAUNTED HOUSE!!! <333
IT WAS FANTASTICALLY BRILLIANT, A HUGE SUCCESS WITH THE CROWD.

Would like to wish all you guys a big 'GOD BLESS' for MYEs, and to more happy memories and experiences as a class ahead in the rest of the year!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

SYF '11

2011-03-31T06:10:00.005-04:00

I absolutely have to record this down if not I'm really going to regret it. :)

SYF 2011 was the best thing that ever happened in my life so far.

Practising for the judging, I remember my struggle with all the actions, as well as a kind of endless longing for the agility and bodily coordination that others seemed to have naturally. :)

It wasn't an easy feat - more so for the people who were trying to correct me. :( Yet thank you God, for such kindly seniors, who never lost patience with my blundering self and took it upon themselves to guide me and help me improve. Thank you for my dearest friends, who fiercely tried to defend me from feeling like the worst dancer in history and always being there for a little pep talk.

On the day itself, 29th of March 2011, I was really nervous. I remember just seconds before the announcer called us out onto the stage, I psychologically felt that my pants were too loose. My partner (Oh, God bless her!) tried to comfort me and checked my knot. :) And then we were off. As the music started, I realised I had been holding my breath. I let it out in one flush and prayed hard.

Later in the foyer, people kept coming up to us (seniors from years back, teachers, juniors, parents) and they said it was flawless and very touching! Which was quite comforting. Thank you God!

Okay somehow, I felt later that YOU had been placing a 'veil of flawlessness' in front of us that displayed nothing but perfection because we worked hard and you love us so much. And so I think this was the revolution that happened that day. :)

Anyway we all gave our superb best and now... TIME FOR THE RESULTS (GIVEN TODAY)
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GOLD, WITH HONOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wasn't present with them to collect the results as I was at the orthodontist, but as soon as I received amy's message I ran around the house screaming, my mom too, and we hugged and danced around the house. :))))

YES WE DID IT, CREDITS TO THE EXTREMELY DIFFICULT PLANNING AND DETERMINATION OF OUR DEAR SEC 4s AND TO OUR HARD WORK.

And of course to God, of whom carrying this out successfully would have been utterly impossible. :)

2011-03-27T08:31:00.000-04:00

God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me!
He will be my guide, hold me closely to his side.
With love and strength for each new day,
He will make a way...
Yes he will make a way!

Oh what a lovely and spirit-lifting song! :)

2011-03-13T23:39:00.003-04:00

I was reading up on Acids, Bases and Salts - which I didn't get it. I was really wondering 'Why do we even have to study this?'
I mean, I get the facts and stuff, but I really can't see the big picture, how all these figures and concepts even go with each other.
Ionic equations, atomic structure, theory after theory of elements and substances, all these are so familiar yet alien.

I have had rather distressing moments in this course of getting acquainted with chemistry. Chemistry practicals in the lab are always stressful, suddenly new words and definitions would pop out from my teacher and I would be there going 'Ahh! I don't remember learning that?! Ohno why is everything so hazy?' and then I would be agonizing over my apparent ignorance.

So then I google-d 'what is chemistry' and up popped a link on 'ten ways to pass your next chemistry exam'. I read it and sighed again. Tearing my eyes away from the computer screen I glanced at my list of the Ten commandments and a little note I had written last year about 'How to be successful in life' from one of the church sermons.

Then it hit me.

We don't have to be good in everthing, we don't even have to worry about anything, simply because the things that we face here in this earth don't even count a thing in the eternal perspective!
Chemistry - and the problems that come along with it - is just a little speck of dust on a windowpane. One day I'm going to look back at my life and laugh at my foolishness for all those hours of worry spent on my studies.
Life should be seen in the eternal perspective. Can you imagine that this life on earth - about seventy years or so, is barely even a grain of rice as compared to a whole barrel-full?
I find it hard to imagine that I agonize over something so minute in the heavenly realm, that something this insignificant can suck the energy and life out of me.
Here's something else I realized: Schoolwork, results, exams and tests won't count a thing when we get to heaven. There isn't such a thing as passing an exam to go to heaven. In fact, we've already earned highest honours - just because we are God's children, whom he loves so much and will honour - as long as we please him in what we do!

This is such a wonderful thought.

Dear God, I pray with all my heart that I'll go about everyday, living life with the conviction of who I am in Christ and with the confidence of having you, my 24/7 guardian always by my side. I sincerly apologise from the bottom of my heart for all the nasty things I've done and the doubtful thoughts I've considered. I pray that I'll seek to find joy in every single day, just because everyday is a gift from you to live. May you help to remove any challenge/obstacle that might blind me from that knowledge and that I'll live every single moment with the goal of reaching your Heart and becoming more and more like you. Help me to find time and importance in the things that matter to you and to give less to those that don't. Protect me, O lord, that I may ALWAYS see the things of this world in this light.
Amen.

2011-03-08T08:17:00.000-05:00

Oh God above, is it your will to have me experience this?
How much longer will it last?
It hurts too much and I just don't think I can hold on.
Deliver me, I pray.

Save me.

Love you so much,
Claire Lee

2011-02-23T07:45:00.003-05:00

Hey hey!
Wow it's been so long, it's already March!
Missed my birthday post, but it's okay. :)
On my birthday/Chinese New Year eve/school celebration day/reunion dinner day,
It was super duper awesomely cool!

I did lion dance and I'm so glad to report that I did not fall off the stage! Whee!
My class yelled real loud 'Happy Birthday Claire!' while I was on stage. So sweet right? <3 I received many sweet presents from my dear dear friends!

ALrights, so yupps, now it's March and my piano grade 7 exam is coming up!
Gulps.
I'll try my best!

Oh yes, I have a youtube account for my compositions so now all my friends can listen to it without me having to email them! Visit my facebook profile for the link! :DD

Thanks to all my supporters thus far! <3
And to God, the source of my ability and my inspiration.
Love you so much! <33333333333333333333333333333333

2011-01-30T17:40:00.000-05:00

Caught the flu bug last thursday. :(
Birthday is this wednesday, we're going to ben and jerry's for ice-cream!!!
Yum-mie!!
Well all that separates me from that DELICIOUS treat is:
1) a chemistry extra-lesson
2) a make-up chemistry lab work
3) a History test
4) a momentous lion dance performance
5) about five more dead-lined homework assignments
6) AND a vicious cold! (Thankfully I'm recovering fast!)

It's strange how when you list it all out and start them with 'a' it looks shorter and easier. Well, I think I'll just shut my eyes off all the stress and stay focused on the BIG DAY TREAT, which will BE totally blissful and fattening! :D Yum. :D

Whee okay, have to go!

THREE MORE DAYS!!!!

2011-01-24T07:56:00.003-05:00

Hey God,
School life is rather okay, settling in!
Although some days are unusually long.

But it's okay. :)

Ever since my mom and I had the talk about cherishing each new day with God's hope, I have begun to see the joy in waking up early for school. It like, enlightened my heart. :D

Well lotsa homework to do, 7 pieces! So, got to go.

See ya soon! :D

2011-01-07T09:34:00.004-05:00

Hey God,
School started about four days ago and I am SO glad it's friday.
Sec3 is a world of difference from last year.
This year we have to change classes and run about more, most of us on an average swap classes about 3-4 times a day.

This first week was like a whirlwind. :(
I forgot where I was supposed to go, then forgot to bring down extra needed things from my form class, and to top it all off, challenging lessons.
I was rather blown away, but now I am enjoying it (or a little, anyway!)

Chemistry is hard. So is Higher Chinese.
I'll be so needing your help this year, God! :D

BUT I'm absolutely sure that this year is going to be SUPERFABULOUSLY brilliant with all the activities like OBS, overseas trips, Syf and of course, new experiences!
I can hardly wait! :D

New Year's Eve's Eve!

2010-12-30T09:48:00.002-05:00

Tomorrow is New Years Eve!
I'm kinda excited, although a bit worried too.
Of course my worries are also what others worry about, and I guess it's normal.
BUTTTT we shouldn't be worried in the first place, so I shall not elaborate. :D

There's a Thanksgiving and Watchnight Service at church tomorrrow. :D
School starts on Tuesday! :DDDD
Homework starts soon after.
I'm SO ready to get into the swing of things again!

Alright it's getting late. :D

Good night! :D

Merry Christmas

2010-12-25T03:34:00.002-05:00

Happy Birthday Jesus!
You are my best-of-the-best friend I ever had and will have.
Thank you for lighting up my world with your glory.
Thank you for loving me, even when I don't deserve it.
Thank you for giving me precious family and friends.
Thank you for school and everything I have.
Thank you even, for homework. :P

I hope you will have a WONDERFUL birthday party today and may you be pleased at our doing.

Thank you!
I love you!

Love, Claire.

2010-12-17T07:07:00.000-05:00

I wasn't feeling very good about myself the other night, being totally worried about everything that's been going on.
I was tempted to let myself be sad, and so totally fell for it.
So I flipped open my bible to read on the day's assigned devotion passage.
And right there was this beautiful, yet instructional verse:

'Turn all your anxiety over to God because he cares for you. Keep your mind clear, and be alert. Your opponent the devil is prowling around like a roaring lion as he looks for someone to devour. Be firm in the faith and resist him, knowing that other believers throughout the world are going through the same kind of suffering.
God, who shows you his kindness and who has called you though Christ Jesus to his eternal glory, will restore you, strengthen you, make you strong and support you as you suffer for a little while. Power belongs to him forever. Amen. '

Just thought I'd share this, which brought me so much encouragement.
Power belongs to Him forever, Amen? :D

Letters to God from the Past

2010-12-09T22:10:00.003-05:00

'Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank you for having a hammer to smash all my bad things that I think in my brain.'
-From a seven-year-old Claire

'Dear God,
Help me to decide which soft toy should go for the trip.'
-From an eleven-year-old Claire

It is so amusing to read all my old letters to God. As far as I know, I have been keeping diaries full of letters to God since I was small, and what I wrote then always makes me laugh.

It is so great to know that God is always there for me throughout every event of my life. :D

2010-12-01T21:47:00.004-05:00

Hey God,
It's December! :D
Thank you for granting me such a great month of November and I pray that December will be even better! :D

Thank you that:
-The Happy Quest has been going rather fine! 4th day today and I hope I can make it!
-I managed to pack my room and neaten it up!
-I managed to finish quite a bit of homework! (Although not done yet so'll have to buck up a little. :P)
-Daily devotions have been coming out well! I rather enjoy it, actually!

Yep, so I guess that the theme I'll be giving myself for this month will be 'Thanksgiving'. Indeed, we have so much to thank God for that everyday should be full of thanks! :D

Okay, see ya'll soon and Happy Holidays! :D

Welcome to the Kingdom of God!

2010-11-29T05:02:00.002-05:00

I'm bubbling with happiness... my dear cousin has just said the Sinners' Prayer and has become a 'full-fledged' Christian!
OH, the JOY of seeing someone accepting Jesus into his/her heart!
What a joyful occasion it must be now, in heaven!
For when one person is saved here on earth, the multitudes in heaven are rejoicing!

Praise the Lord! :D

I LOVE Psalty - the Singing Songbook - 's songs. I remember watching Psalty, as well as the Donut Man on video when I was small, and up till now I still enjoy them!
Here is one song that I like very much:

'One Step at a Time' - Psalty the Singing Songbook:

When something seems
Too hard to handle
Too big to conquer
Too far away to touch

When all your dreams
Begin to shatter
And deep inside you
You're hurtin', oh, so much
That's when it's time to say

Refrain:
I'm climbing my mountain, step by step
I'm climbing my mountain, day by day
I'm climbing my mountain, all the way
I'm climbing my mountain
I'm gonna make it

Chorus:
One step at a time
One step at a time
One step at a time
With Jesus by my side
One step at a time
One step at a time
I'm climbing my mountain
One step at at time

Even though you might grow weary
Don't be discouraged
In our weakness God is strong

Remember this, He'll never leave you
He won't forsake you
He's your strength and He's your song
So sing and start to say...
(Refrain then Chorus)

Psalty says, the way to climb a mountain, is ONE STEP AT A TIME!
How true.

See ya'll soon and God bless! :D

Happy World Kindness Day!

2010-11-13T00:23:00.003-05:00

Hey God!
Today is World Kindness Day, 13 November!
Woke up at 5.30 today to go for the ILOVESINGAPORE Walk in town.

It was heartening to see so many Christians gathering together for a common cause!
There were thousands present there!
We sang a few songs, then were flagged off towards the F1 route for a casual walk.

Along the way, we were given daisies and helium balloons! :D
It was rather funny at one point of time where I accidentally swiped the stem of a daisy that my mom was holding, and the daisy's stem broke off! :O My mom was just joking that I had knives for hands when she broke another herself! :O :D

I have to say, the daisies were pretty. Mom tied the broken-stemmed ones to her shoes. :D The helium balloons were cool too. Except that when I tied one around my wrist, it unwound itself and flew away! :D

I'm SO glad I got to do something this meaningful on World Kindness Day!
Thank you God for this marvellous opportunity to patron such an activity that encompasses my law of life (Kindness)! I really enjoyed it! :D

:D

Holidays!

2010-11-06T10:27:00.002-04:00

Hey! :D
Yay, the holidays are here!
With much-welcomed relief.

I've been posted to class 3s2 next year!
Looking forward to making new friends and start learning more exciting things.
I'm really looking forward to starting school next January - but in the meantime, I just relax and enjoy my new found freedom. :D

Haha, you know that day my mum and I were talking, and I asked her: "Can we go to popular to get school supplies?" "When can we order my new textbooks?" And she looked at me and started laughing. :D Gee, I'm such a nerd. :P

Well, this holiday will be meaningful (I hope!!). I have to really brush up on my Math and Chinese, as well as to perfect my Piano Examination pieces for mext March's exam.
Not forgetting, I'll also need to organize my room and spend more quality time with God! :D

Well, I'd ought to get going. :D

Goodbye (and see you soon!) :D

2010-10-14T04:51:00.003-04:00

The Prayer of my Heart:

I look upon your kindness,
and see nothing else but grace.
Smiling down at me,
is your ever-loving face.

Why do I have to upset you,
so many times a day?
Why can't I learn to be content,
Of everything in my way?

It's so disappointing,
To know I've failed again.
I just wish I could be perfect
So'd no one would be upset.

God please forgive me,I ask,
from the depths of my heart.
Cleanse me inside out,
I want to be clean.

I want to be more loving,
more content, more kind.
I want to not complain,
even if others make me grind.

I confess I have sinned,
and repent I'll definitely do,
but right now O God,
Forgive me, will you?

I want to be your shining light,
To serve you everyday.
Dear, dear God,
Can you please make me this today?

2010-10-03T06:13:00.002-04:00

Today's Verse of the Day (from Bible Gateway):
“[Praise to God for a Living Hope] Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,”- 1 Peter 1:3

Yay wonders! :D

A little thought-bite:

Have you ever wondered how much the events in your life matter to God? God is way way bigger than we can ever imagine. He created the Universe, all the galaxies, the wonders of nature and the splendid wildlife. We are just no more than a speck of dust as compared to Him. God doesn't have to care about our puny little lives and the trials we see as so great, yet, the fact is, HE DOES. Very much indeed.

The trials that we go through everyday, those events, are NOTHING compared to the size of our God. And I've just realised that, when we worry, we just prove to God how small we think he is.

Even this great big rock of the EOY to us is such a simple pebble to Him.

I don't know about you, but I'm going to stop worrying and just do my best - leave the rest to God. You should too, it will make you feel much better about the exams.

:)

2010-09-29T09:33:00.002-04:00

Hey there!
Exams are coming!
Keep it up everyone!
Though the going might be hard, don't forget that all this is just a trial of faith that we have in our God. :D

Wow I've been listening to Mozart's Concerto No. 23 on repeat while studying, and oh my goodness I LOVE IT. I especially like the first and third movements, while the third movement in A major is my favourite!

I recommend it to music and piano lovers! The piano duet for the third movement is THE best because it sounds more grand than the orchestral one.

Gee how I wish I could compose something like that.

Oh wells, just a little bite on how you can enjoy your study times. :D

2010-09-21T06:37:00.002-04:00

Lots of things to do,
and lots of things to see.
But help me know,God,
You're all I need in me.

-Claire Lee :)

Haha poems. I love poems. Hee.
Well, exams are near and I can't say I've been breezing along just fine, but I'm sure with God's help I'll be alright. Hey that rhymes again! Haha. Did I say I love poems? :D

Actually it was preeety nerve-racking last week with lots of massive break downs for me, but hey, with God's help, here I am past 'last week'! Praise the Lord!
My heart just lights up whenever I read Psalms and realise (for maybe the thousandth time) the magnitude of God's grace and his AWEsome love and grace.

I am really inspired by Jesus' wise words, his kind actions, the twinkle in his kindly eyes when he speaks to children, and his absolute obedience to go to the cross, even though he could have simply not gone, as depicted in the book of Matthew. I am falling in love, all over again. With Jesus. :D

I am learning to be more and more like Jesus. You should too! It will really captivate you and change your life.

Well, God bless to all of you for your upcoming exams! :D

2010-08-28T04:03:00.002-04:00

God, thank you for giving me this chance!
Help me not to feel fearful or nervous, but to go there with your peace and show them what you've done and placed in me.
May I shine mightily for your glory, and that may all who see me play see your awesome power through my works and my playing.
Help me to be a living vessel for your name - that's all I want to be.

:D

Shyness

2010-08-28T03:39:00.002-04:00

Hey God!
I really think I have a weird condition of shyness.

The weird thing is, when I meet new people who are older than me, no matter by 1 year or twenty, I will become terribly shy and feel super out of place. And it can cause me terrible stomach-aches up to the point where I feel simply upset.

But on the other hand, if like its the first day of a new school or something, where I am going to meet new people who are like, the same age as me or equivalent in level as me, I would not even feel an ounce of shyness, instead I would feel excited.

Weird huh?

At least its comforting to know that God still loves me - no matter what.

:D

2010-08-24T01:34:00.003-04:00

Heys!
E-learning these few days!
Its actually quite enjoyable, except that asynchronised homework is a little on the 'more' side.
Not including the fact that we have more than asynchronised lesson homework to do.
When I was missing in action the last thursday and friday, I missed out many things, apparently. Like arch and sector in math, which makes me unable to do my homework.

Still, I am grateful to God for the fact that I have mostly recovered and have so many supportive, caring, responsible and loving friends around me who are offering all they can to help me catch up.

I am refusing (or trying, anyway) to feel stressed about whether or not I will be able to finish this mountain of homework, because I want to test myself how much I trust God. :)

Today's Verse of the Day!
“I love the LORD, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy. Because he turned his ear to me, I will call on him as long as I live.”- Psalm 116:1-2

2010-08-16T02:27:00.002-04:00

Verse of the Day:

“Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God.”
- 2 Corinthians 7:1

YOG Opening Ceremony was pure fabulous! Hee!
Im happy to say that everything (or most anyway) went according to plan.
Thank you God!

Yays. I really enjoyed the experience! :DD

Well, I am starting a schedule to study the Bible, and used my lunch money to buy a green highlighter for highlighting good verses or pointers in my dear bible.

I want to thank God for a lot of things! :DD
1)For making YOG a success!
2)For helping me to get up early the next day to go to church!
3)For providing me a wonderful worship opportunity!
4)That I can wake up daily to a brand new day and go to school to see my friends!
5)That I am so blessed!
6)That I don't have to worry about the littlest things around me (even though I always do :P)
AND THE LIST GOES ON...

I feel like dancing joyfully with a tambourine just like Miriam did in the Old Testament. :D

THANK YOU GOD! :D

2010-08-12T04:13:00.002-04:00

Hey There!
Well, busy busy busy.
Everyone's busy in their own way or another.
YOG is in TWO DAYS everyone!

Do watch the Opening Ceremony at 8pm on the telly! :DD

Sighs, recently, I havnt really been doing my Quiet Times faithfully, I find so many things getting in the way that I can even forget to do it. It really pains me to observe that I place my grades above my relationship with God.

While other times I get distracted and do other stuff like reading my storybook rather than my devotional or my bible.

Arrrghh! What a terrible state Im in now.
I must do it, I must!!!
Hmm, time for an inspiration God! :D

Ohh I should share something that came as a revelation to me today.
I finally understood everything in today's science class!
Woohoo, and it was because I prayed to God to help me understand.

Whee, I should totally pray before every Math, Science, LSCEP and Chinese lesson. xD

Okay, see ya soon!

2010-08-02T06:55:00.002-04:00

Hey!

That day, I was talking with LooSin about how fast time flies and saying that last year we just joined our cca and next year we would be on the verge of leaving already. Sooner or later, we will be like...twenty years old, then thirty and the next.
Gee, I don't know about you guys, but I think I'm really gonna miss my present Sec 3 cca seniors when they step down.

I've often been afraid of the future, because I am a particularly worrisome person. But how silly I feel when I read the book of Joshua.
God mentions countless times to Joshua, "Be strong and courageous."

God actually COMMANDS Joshua to be strong and courageous:
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

This is a wonderful promise of the Lord Himself, he COMMANDS us NOT to be afraid, terrified or cowardly in the presence of the unknown, instead getting us to focus on the fact that our guard is there with us - for thick or thin.
What a FABULOUS word discovered! Let it be our source of strength today. :D

2010-08-01T08:07:00.002-04:00

Hey all!
YOG's been great so far, and I'm having a whale of a time with my beloved seniors, juniors and batchmates! Last Friday I got teased by Tammy who claimed that my head was too big for the headgear - and the blackbox inside the headgear which stuck out like a lump was my brain. :DD Funny and weird, but I laughed until I couldn't breathe. LOL.

I missed FOP!! That was so sad. According to my church friends, it was awesome. Nevermind, I'll go next year.

Hmm, I am supposed to write an English essay on the 'Laws of Life'. What should I write about, God? I started with encouragement, then quit halfway and did kindness instead, and now both seem terrible.

Yay! God gave me another piano piece titled 'Rainbow of Love' which came about after I read a chapter in my devotional about true christian love and how important it is to show such Christlike love for others. Also, I've been having dreams (as in the thought kind, not the sleep one) about my aspiration. I want to be a film composer, like those people who write background music or backing tracks for a particular scene. Let's pray about it, shall we?

Hmm I just realised I've been giving a paragraph by paragraph update of my life so far. Anyway, I should be getting back to my essay now!
See y'all soon!

'You're the God of my Days,
King of my Nights,
Lord of my Laughter,
Sovereign in sorrow.
You're the Prince of my Praise,
The Love of my Life.
You never leave me -
You are faithful.
God of my Days. '

2010-07-11T09:00:00.002-04:00

Hi there everyone!
Well, today's sermon was about wholeheartedly serving God.
I have come to realise that serving, worshipping and praising Him can be anywhere, anytime and for any duration!
:D
So that means that through everything I do, I aim to bring praise to him through my efforts.

Yay! What an amazing truth discovered!

See you soon!

Praise be Unto You!

2010-07-07T18:44:00.002-04:00

Wow God,
Sem. 2 has started for nearly two weeks already.
I thank you for it.

I have been very inspired by all the ideas that you have given me lately to write more songs. I really hope that the songs created will help to win people for you. :D Oh yeah, and my very poem-inspired partner has just been great in supporting me during the practise sessions. ;D

Aiyo, pity though, my cough isn't getting any better. When I cough, I can't breathe. How to dance like that? D:God help me!!!

Okay, have to go.
Bye!

Claire.

2010-06-08T09:15:00.003-04:00

Hey I'm Back. :D
I would really like to thank my pal God for being with me during these past few days which were kind of stressful for me.

I had another two teeth pulled today. And unlike the previous time which I just lay there and made funny little clucking noises, I cried. *Embarrassed*
I didn't cry and squirm like a baby, I just teared up when the dentist shot me and when the fourth tooth was on its way out.
BUT The dental assistant said I was very brave, considering that my roots are 20% longer than an average person. :P (So that's where all the milk deposits went to...)

Well, THANK THE LORD FOR THAT! I SURVIVED.
And I pray that I may never need another extraction in my life ever again. ;D

A big thank you to my mommy, who ferried me to all my appointments, gave me a hug when I needed it, and prayed fervently for me while I was tearing in the exam room.
Thank you mummy, for sitting next to me and holding me close while I struggled through the aftermath pain of the extraction, supplying me with honeyed water, self-boiled cooling tea and encouraging words.

Another big thank you to my Dad, who (I know) prayed for me and empathise with me during my painful times. :DDD

I would also like to thank my friends and cell group mates for all their support, encouragement and prayers as well.

ALRIGHTS, now that the worst is over, its time to concentrate on my homework. I can't wait to select my braces colours! :D

Holidays are Here!

2010-05-29T20:30:00.002-04:00

Hey God!
The Holidays are here again!
There are so many things which I am looking forward to.
Church Camp, Dance Camp, Piano Lessons and Braces visits!
Its going to be a blast!

Do help me to make full use of the holidays to catch up on my work too, I need to improve on my math expecially. All my subjects I did pretty well (above average) except Literature and Math. Hmm, now I am having qualms about selecting Literature... :D

Okay, I have to go. Leaving for church soon!
Claire. <333

2010-05-14T00:15:00.003-04:00

MYEs are over!

Come to think of it, I was really foolish to be anxious about my exams, even though God would take me through it.

I know I probably didn't do very well for my maths, but maybe all this struggle for math is of a good purpose and outcome.
After all, God's amazing power is shown through our weaknesses, right?

No matter what kind of grades I receive at the end of term, or what subject combination I get into, it will all be for the glory and honour of God.
Seriously speaking, who am I to doubt what He has for me?

:D

2010-04-15T02:16:00.002-04:00

Hey God!
Home Ecs was fine.
I am currently working on three projects at once -
05_Rest (with vocalists)
10_He Cares (with vocalists)

and

11_In the Stillness

PLUSSSS! The MYEs!

I am a little stressed, but I shall try to live up to my middle name.

Joey isn't really responding to all my cooing.

SIGH.

Nevermind.

Bye God!!! :DD

*All your promises won't let go of me!
Now the sun's shining bright and it just won't set!*

2010-04-08T02:53:00.002-04:00

Hello God!
Yay we bought another hamster, Joey on 2 April.
The store-person told me that Joey is two months old.
That means that she was born around Feb 2! :D

So cool!

I have a Home Ecs practical exam next week plus lots of other tests, plus art project. :(
Plus tuition homework and piano practice.
I have to learn a duet to play with another girl for a performance.
Marche Militaire is nice but a little hard. :D

Okay, going now.
Bye!

2010-03-30T05:39:00.002-04:00

Hello God!
JOE PASSED AWAY!
:((((
I am so SAD. It has only been three months!

Ethan wrote a 'death certificate' for it.
I reads (I am copying off the paper stuck on the wall):

This messages is to our beloved Joe Lee which was our first hamster that lived with us.
RIP
JOE LEE.
Details on how he looked like when he died > He was curled up in a ball and sleeping. He was in a food bowl when found dead. There were disgusting flies over it and the hamster smelled bad.
The Death Certificate of Joe Lee.
Hope you RIP.

Yes, I know this sounds like a half-coroner's report and a half-headstone reading, not like a death certificate at all which always includes at least the date of death.
But my brother had good intentions.

What I have experienced only reaffirms that:
Nothing in this world ever lasts forever. Worldly possessions are not worth coveting about, because they are only temporary, but I will still miss Joe.
Oh, I feel a little bit emotional while typing this. He went to sleep yesterday afternoon. This morning I went to his playhouse to say good morning to him and I was slightly puzzled at why he was not inside. Then I remembered.

Sigh.

Nevermind! Yun Ying and I have been practising really hard for a recording session of my latest song 'He Cares'. It really reflects what to do in times of need.

MYE is like in a few weeks. I feel so overwhelmed. I still don't remember the literature TEQA sequence and format + not enough practice in class; I don't know whether I can remember all my formats for History; I am not good with the sihan/gonghan formats; My english summary keeps failing; my maths chapter 3 is simply horrible.

God HELP me.
I want to do very well. :D

2010-03-25T01:08:00.002-04:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
I GOT 125 MARKS FOR PIANO EXAM! (Merit)
PRAISE BE TO GOD!
WOOHOO!

Hi God,
I am 'painting' my nails with water that has a slightly orange tinge, leftover from my watercolour painting.
No, this is not breaking school rules, but because I can't find a time to walk all the way to the nearest toilet (which isn't all that near) to dump it away. Anyway, the water dries up as soon as it is applied. What's left behind - nothing.
It is fun!

I would like to write a half-post to my friend, who is sitting next to me now but anyway:

Hello Bump,
Thank you for being so understanding (which is very hard, I know.), and I appreciate you for being a true friend - you have passed the test! Because a true friend is one who knows (and dares!) to let go of their own. Thank you thank you thank you! You are indeed one of a kind. God bless you in EVERYTHING you do, and may you ALWAYS be happy. :D

Last night I read Elizabeth George's 'A young woman's walk with God' on the topic of Gentleness. Gentleness, is one of the fruit of the Spirit.
It is the 'Fruit of Power' because having a gentle heart is NOT as easy as it sounds.

Possessing gentleness means to 'take it'. To be able to withstand cold stares, mean words and harsh actions from others - while at the same time, refusing to be angry or impatient, refusing to rebut or retaliate. To undergo tremendous pressure, at the same time to have that never-ending trust in God as well as absolutely refuse to complain. Gentleness is MEEKNESS, not WEAKNESS.

What a hard but fulfilling fruit to master! The bible says, these hearts with this fruit of gentleness are indeed rare and hard-to-find, but those who possess it glimmer like the most beautiful gems and jewels in all the earth.

There was A LOT in the chapter, but it ended with a list of what you should do today to achieve gentleness.
Here it is:
1. Pray for gentleness
2. Trust in the Lord
3. Refuse to be angry/irritated at ANYONE (Friends, Parents, Siblings, Grandparents etc.)
4. Refuse to complain about ANYTHING (amount of homework, how hard a test was etc, because complaining shows distrust in the Lord and his plans for you and your future.)

Alrights, PBL now.
GTG!
<3

2010-03-21T07:36:00.002-04:00

Hi God!
Yes this week of 'holiday-ing' is almost over.
In a few hours my March 'holiday' is going to end.

And no, I am not sad.
Thank you for this week, because it has helped me to recuperate from the stresses of schoolwork and school life. It has given me another approach to many things, basically.

I am rather looking forward to another new term!
This term I shall focus more on studying and doing your work.

Aunt came back from Wisconsin yesterday and she got me a glossy purple diary!
Thank you, Aunt!
I shall use it when I am done with the the spongy turquoise one.

Oh, today Pastor talked about the sixth commandment in the Old Testament.
It says 'You shall not Murder.'
Like everyone else, I thought, that should be a rather easy commandment to live by.
But boy!
I was once again reminded that 'hating your fellow brothers and sisters (or friends, if you choose to say it that way)' is just as bad as murder.

What a timely reminder.
Thanks God.

Been trying to compose a new piece, 'Companion' .
However, I did not really have the time to get myself calmed down on the piano bench to think and well, receive the parts for the piece. I hope I can find some time to do so, I am so excited to see how this one will sound like in the end. :D

Okay, Gtg.
Bye! <333333333333333

'Jesus, I will live for you, in everything I do.
I'm holding on to you, always.
Always and Forever.'

2010-03-16T06:13:00.002-04:00

"I am not going to apologise for speaking the name of Jesus,
I am not going to justify my faith to them,
and I am not going to hide the light that God has put into me.
If I have to sacrifice everything... I will."
-Rachel Joy Scott

Hey God! :D
I need a little help with my homework.
I need to complete them quickly, or else I won't have time to do other things!!! D:

I re-read 'Rachel's Tears'.
It is such an inspirational book!
Rachel has such a deep relationship with you, I am so glad I will get to see her in heaven!
Thank you for Aunty Nancy, who gave me this book.
After reading it, I am once again extremely happy that YOU are my friend. :D

Oh, I got in to the chinese tuition!
HAPPY!
Except, there will be more homework from now on.

Alrights, haha I have to get back to work.

Your child,
Claire.

2010-03-11T08:52:00.002-05:00

Hello God,
I got back my papers!!
Most of them are quite good, except I have to work more on my chinese. :(
Anyway, thank you God for my good results! Praise the lord, for I got a B3 for math and didn't fail! :D

I made pizza during Home Economics on Tuesday. I was so proud of myself, it actually tasted good! Haha, this term's Home Econs is so interesting. Baking!!! <3 I had never baked before term started.

Things are not working out very well in school. I just don't understand.
God, I know I am not perfect, I am human. I make mistakes. Just because I am a Christian does not mean I am saint-like, maintaining a total loss of sin in my life. Oh God, the stress of studies and CCAs as well as the latest crash of my TPC motherboard is already making me feel a little depressed, and with this to deal with, I feel so disappointed. I can't let this happen God, please help me.

Help me to have a greater love for others. Like you unconditionally love me although I disappoint and annoy you over and over again. Please help me love them with your love.

Thank you G.
love, Claire.

I really have to learn to TRUST Him.

2010-03-02T02:11:00.002-05:00

Hello God!
Yes.
I really need to trust you, as in like not worry too much. My badbadbad habit of worrying without rhyme or reason has to change. I pretty much worry about everything - my family, studies, homework, tuition, piano lessons and exams, friends, teachers, school life... well you get the point.

Worrying overboard just shows how much I am lacking in faith. Faith is a vital Fruit of the Spirit, invaluable in the Christian lifestyle. 'For without faith, it is hard to please God', says the bible, but I keep worrying. I HAVE to stop this, I have to learn to take a step back from the motor of my life.

Okay from NOW onwards, I am going to let YOU be the motor of my life.

"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23

2010-03-01T02:46:00.002-05:00

HELLO GOD!

PIANO EXAM IS OVER!

Haha, I am so relieved. Its up to you, G, now. Help me get a Merit at least! :D
Tomorrow I shall go and join the others at LB for CIP. Today after piano exam, we went to scout around the place. The centre looks small on the outside, but there its air-conditioned I think, the whole place is all covered up, windows and doors.

Too bad there is no piano there. Thus I guess I will just play my pianica then.
It is better than shrieking my lungs out on a recorder.
:D

Okay, off to make the most of my time.
:D
Luv ya.

I could piano prance the day away...

2010-02-26T05:27:00.002-05:00

Hello G!
Ahhh, I absolutely love piano prancing. (only some people will know what I am talking about)
Yes, I gave it a name, if you don't mind. :D
It is sooooo relaxing. I can let my heart express its feelings and let my fingers fly across the piano keys.
It is really cool when I think about it, my own hands prancing and playing while I have no need to control anything, but the music blends in perfectly.

The best thing about prancing is that I can REALLY feel the Holy Spirit washing and cleansing me inside out, then when I finally allow myself to finish I feel an unexplainable sense of peace and refreshment.

Thank you God, for giving me this way of getting really IN-TOUCH with you. It is you, that my friends and loved ones should be applauding when they hear your music. Every piece that 'arrives' although it may be sort of like 'my composition' it belongs to you. And I thank you for that. :D

God please bring me to greater heights with this gift you have given me so that I might touch lives everywhere for you.

Today, there was a math test. I thought it was rather okay. I could do everything except question 3 and 10b. Thank you G!

Ohhhhh, my piano exam is on 1st March, which is in like 3 days?? I am feeling pretty nervy, G you must help me on that day okay? Okay, I know I sound like an 'ah-ma' because I have been reminding you ever since 2 weeks ago. :P

Next week is Special Week. We are going to this Old Folks Day Care centre (sort of) and I pray there is a PIANO there! If there is, I am going to have a little performance and play your pieces! :D That way I will be able to make use of my talent for you. :D

HAHA alrights no more chatting.
Bye G!
<3 Claire.

2010-02-13T21:31:00.002-05:00

HELLO GOD!
How are you? Fine and well right?
Haha. I am having a blast of a time.
Yesterday my cousins and my relatives came over and I sort of organised a mini 'amusement park' ride for them!
I got each 'passenger' to board my 'roller coaster car' and I found this makeshift buckle which was transformed into a seat belt. For the younger ones I found this cushion so that they would be able to fit into the seat better.
Bryna and Carlin made tickets for the ride.

We had this queue corner where a fold-up mattress was standing. The had to queue up behind the 'door'(foldable part of mattress). Carlin stood there with a little cup to 'collect tickets'.

The ride went like this. The passenger would hold a little umbrella and be buckled into the chair, I would push them to the middle of the room and let it spin twice, and while they where doing that, Bryna who was hiding somewhere would spray a mist of water on them while they held the umbrella. Then I would pull the chair back and let it slide back to the first position.

It was a great success and I had SO MANY kids jumping around saying "Me next! Me next!" In a way, it WAS rather chaotic, but thanks to Carlin the ticket collector, everything went fine. I loved seeing them scream and laugh while being 'sprayed'. They didn't get too wet because it was just a mist, so that was PERFECT.

However the carpet in my room DID get a little wet, so I paused the game and got them to do a miniature obstacle course by fashioning tables, chairs and different coloured highlighters.

When the carpet dried, we played again. So cool. Later when they come again, I might just do it again. :D

tHANK YOU gOD for helping me think up these games to occupy them.

Bye!
<3

2010-02-10T17:51:00.002-05:00

Hi God!
I have not seen my cousins for a LOOOOOONG LOOOOOOOONG time!
Ever since the beginning of the year.

I miss them.
I am so busy everyday and I don't get to go to their house anymore to play.
Carlin is already in primary 1! :D
Heard that she is a monitor in her class.
Haha, so cute.
At home, Carlin always likes to boss us around, even though she's the youngest.

Angus and Ethan are P6 already. SO FAST!!!!!!
Bryna is in P4 - she just had a CCA change to Table Tennis Club.
Cool. Maybe we can play at my house.

I miss the-cool-cousins! :(

SIGH.

oKAY, I am getting my class tee shirt!
I ordered M, but it looks SUPER HUGE.
But, its nice!
I have chinese test today!!!!!

Please grant me a good day God,
I<3U! :D

2010-02-08T17:40:00.004-05:00

Hi God,
I have great news!
I managed to finish most of my to-do list!!! YESH!

-Study for Math common test
-Write script/ plan for IC skit/ inform everyone of changes DUE MONDAY
-Math HW 2.3 qn1(b,e) 2(c,f) 3(b,f) 4(e,f) 5(f,g,h) 6(b,c,d,e) 9 DUE MONDAY
-Art HW Variety and Emphasis DUE TUESDAY
-Math file corrections
-Burn dance cloth DUE MONDAY
-Science Theory WB Chapter D4 DUE MONDAY
-Organise Science File DUE MONDAY
-LSCEP project
-Chinese jianbao DUE MONDAY
-Chinese guangboju script DUE MONDAY
-English assessment book
-Math assessment book (corrections+more pages)
-Science assessment
-Chinese assessment
-Practice piano for exam (Pieces)
-Memorise music aural test 6D (ii)
-Prepare for math tuition DUE THIS AFTERNOON
-Clear doubts DUE THIS AFTERNOON
-IC reflections DUE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!

YAY! Those in BOLD are are those that I have not done! I feel so accomplished, thank you God! Alrights, have to go now. Later there is Home Econs and Art! So it should be quite a relaxing/slack-ey day!

Thanks again!

Claire. :D

2010-02-05T20:28:00.002-05:00

Hi God,

I am STRESSED.

Do you mind if I write down everything that needs to be done?

Thanks. It will help me feel better and more organised.

Okay, here goes:

-Study for Math common test

-Write script/ plan for IC skit/ inform everyone of changes DUE MONDAY

-Math HW 2.3 qn1(b,e) 2(c,f) 3(b,f) 4(e,f) 5(f,g,h) 6(b,c,d,e) 9 DUE MONDAY

-Art HW Variety and Emphasis DUE TUESDAY

-Math file corrections

-Burn dance cloth DUE MONDAY

-Science Theory WB Chapter D4 DUE MONDAY

-Organise Science File DUE MONDAY

-LSCEP project

-Chinese jianbao DUE MONDAY

-Chinese guangboju script DUE MONDAY

-English assessment book

-Math assessment book (corrections+more pages)

-Science assessment

-Chinese assessment

-Practice piano for exam (Pieces)

-Memorise music aural test 6D (ii)

-Prepare for math tuition DUE THIS AFTERNOON

-Clear doubts DUE THIS AFTERNOON

-IC reflections DUE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!

Oh God,

I really need that superhuman strength of yours.

I am finding it hard to breathe, I really am.

You are such an organised God who does EVERYTHING in time. Help me to do the same.

I trust in you, for all things work for those who love you.

And you know I do.

Help me God, I am suffocating under this whole mountain of homework. There is family reunion dinner later and I have to finish most of my work after my 3 hour tuition!

Thank you for all these homework and stress lord, I know you are training me for the future, but can you please lessen it a little?

Thank you.

<3,>

2010-02-02T05:31:00.003-05:00

Hi God!

I AM OFFICIALLY ONE YEAR OLDER TODAY!!!!!

Today went to school, lugged all the goodies and quickly distributed them onto the tables of my classmates. Nicole so funny, helped me to 'stand guard' outside the door so no one could come in until I had finished.

NOW I am typing with a NEW keyboard.

That's because shalynn gave me this set of COOL keypad stickers for me to stick! YAY so happy.

I got a lot of presents today.

Going to get more tomorrow!

God, you know what, the total count of the number of people who wished me was:

46 people!

That is so cool right. SOOOOO many, and many more coming soon. Hehheh.

I have finally got myself calm about tomorrow's cupcake mini-test.

Went to watch quite a few videos about making icing and adding natural colours to the orange icing which I am going to make tomorrow.

I am now doing the group questions for lit so I can send it to Lynn as soon as possible.

Later have to study the first ten words for yanyu.

Then have to practice piano.

BUSY BUSY BUSY.

MY BIRTHDAY WISH:

that I will be able to break free from all my bad habits which are so horrible I cannot stand it myself and lead a meaningful, non-procrastinating life as well as to do well in EVERTHING I do. That Ethan will do well in his PSLE this year. Lastly, that our family will be happy, healthy and be able to bless others for the work of God.

Yes yes, so as I said I will lead a non-procrastinating life and get rid of all my bad and unholy habits, like slacking and doing things that I should not be doing. Like now.

OKAY so from, er-hem this moment, er, 6.45pm on February the 2nd, I promise to live a new life away from bad habits and walk by the Holy Spirit and only do what is pleasing unto God. God I am sorry for whatever things I have done before this moment, but I will repent and be obedient to you FROM THIS MOMENT. Okay its 6.47 now.

Bye God!

Claire. :D

2010-01-30T01:12:00.002-05:00

Hey God!

Feeling slightly better after a nap.

Supposed to have tuition but I felt really disoriented and couldn't think straight.

3 more days to my birthday.

A little nervous.

Time really flies! One moment I am so little and in a few days (3, to be exact) I am going to be much older than I before.

Looking at my childhood photos make me feel rather nostalgic.

I actually laughed at myself for being so fat when I was a baby.

My head was huge. HAHAAA.

I saw myself grow and change till I was about ten I think.

In one picture on my birthday I TOOK A PICTURE of myself and my beloved cousins - with all our hair wild and flying all over my face.

Thank you God, you are the one who helped me all this while and you were the one who was and is always with me, even during the time when I was afraid on the first day of Primary 1, during the time experienced my first roller coaster ride, when I dropped my first tooth, you were there with me.

THANK YOU LORD. I believe you have the power to turn things deemed impossible to become possible, for you are the God of Possiblities and hope. I love you God, be with me, no I believe you WILL be with me during this new year of my life, and help me to change my horrible unholy habits that I may be pleasing unto you.

Thank you again!

Your friend,

Claire.

2010-01-29T08:34:00.002-05:00

Hello God,

A little sick now, going to turn in slightly earlier today. Please heal me God.

I have a bad headache.

oH NO! I just received an email from Say Hwee regarding bad news about my Chinese project. God, help me! Help my group for my sake, please! I am so giddy I can't think properly now. I will hand this problem to you now, I can't handle it anymore, it is in your hands now, do as you please.

Thank you God,

Claire. D-:

P.S. I still love you.

2010-01-21T18:07:00.004-05:00

To all my friends:

Whoever wants my piano pieces you can tag on the tagboard and state your email address! You tag will be deleted as soon as I send you!

There are 3 songs that you can choose from: (the others are not as nice).

Thanks!

Claire. :D

2010-01-16T04:38:00.002-05:00

Hi God!

Finished homework hours ago and spent the last hour (or two) reading a book by some author that I cannot really remember the name. The book was... er okay, but there were so many bad words on it that I feel guilty after reading it. There was even this really disgusting page. SIGH.

ANYWAY, lets forget about it.

I finished all my homework before lunch. Left only the Adobe Illustrator art thing and the chinese project. God, help me!!!! Both are so hard... Please help it all work out, God. Please send someone to help me with my Illustrator, and help my group to be able to work out the chinese. Thanks!

Oh, before I forget, I just want to thank you for helping me find a recording device for my composed pieces. It is SO clear. Thank you! Oh, and LETTERBOX project is going to officially start on Monday! Thank you Thank you Thank you! I pray with all my heart that I will be able to touch and care for more lives for you.

Now, I am going to clean this sticky mask off my face and get started with my assessment books.

Bye God!

P.S. To my friends, whoever wants me to send my pieces to you for a listen, tell me what you want and I will send it over. Maybe I shall upload on my blog? Hmm. Think.

2010-01-04T01:33:00.002-05:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL !

Hello God, today is the first day of school!

Now waiting for dance to start.

Oh yeah, I got a pet hamster!

So happy, its name is Joe.

He is REALLY cute.

He is quite an old hamster, elyse's originally but she has a dog already.

Okay, just a quick update here. Have to go change now!

Bye!

2009-12-25T21:19:00.002-05:00

Hello God!
Just wishing you a...
HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY!
Sorry I could not post yesterday, was too busy with the christmas musical.

Oh, thanks God! You answered my prayers and the musical was such a big success! There were quite a few people who accepted Jesus after that. Hallelujah! :DDD

To all my friends everywhere:
Have a merry and blessed christmas, as well as a happy new year to come!

See ya soon God!
bYE!

2009-12-14T00:19:00.002-05:00

Hey God!

Posting in Australia.

Daddy lent me his computer to use.

So far, it has been FUN FUN FUN!

I am enjoying every minute of it!

Have been writing diary entries on pieces of chinese gaozhi.

Actually brought a piece of homework along but I want to have a good rest.

Thank you God once again for this holiday! I love you! <333

Obviously, I will not be able to type out all my diary entries, but do let me share with you the highlights of the past one week in here.

Most fun-filled destination so far: Warner Brothers Movie World!!!

You know, I CANNOT believe that my bro is so addicted to roller coasters. Besides going on my so-called scary ride from the past (Scooby-Doo spooky coaster), he went on the superman escape ride (Do google 'Movieworld superman escape') and the super fast road runner family coaster. My personal favourite is the Looney Tunes River Ride, you actually board a boat to find Bugs Bunny. I love MovieWorld! I went to a section called 'WB Kids', a section of the world for kids and rode ALL the rides there! Super fun!

Destination 1 out of so many: Tambourine Mountain, Glow-worm Caves!

We went to this area to see the glow-worms. Did you know that glow-worms are not even the slightest bit related to worms and are also not fireflies? Glow-worms are only found in Australia and New Zealand. We went into this man-made concrete cave and a guide took us in. It was pitch dark inside with only a few LED lights on the floor of the cave to show us where to go. On the ceiling, there were what seemed like stars in the night time sky. It was indescribably beautiful. Did you know, that the females shine bigger and brighter lights? That is simply because their bottoms are bigger. Hee!

There is just too much to type out, God. I guess I will wait until I go back in a week's time to tell my friends all about it. :D

Bye! Going to watch tv and eat apricots!

Claire. :D

2009-12-01T21:52:00.003-05:00

Hello God!

Sorry I couldn't write to you for soooo long 'cause I was super duper busy. But that does not mean I didn't do devotions! I did!

Going to australia on Sunday.

I am feeling both excited and nervous.

Excited because... I am finally going for my long-awaited holiday!

Nervous because... I have not finished all my homework yet!! Boohoo!

I am going to make sure I finish it all before going overseas, if not after I come back there will be musical practices, dance practices and a math consultation.

God, please help me to complete all my homework, as well as to be able to manage my time with piano practice!

Whoever sees this please pray for me!

Thanks!

Oh well, I have to go back to homework now!

Bye God!

Claire.

2009-11-18T00:24:00.002-05:00

Hey God,

I just finished another piece of homework so I am taking a break now.

Just thought I would pop in for a chat. :D

I am REALLY REALLY excited for Christmas!

Ethan, Christa and I are performing a Christmas musical at Church on Christmas Day itself together with the Hi_Kids.

Yeah, well, I know, Christa and I are not really supposed to be in it because we are already... er... how should I say it?

Well, overage. :D

But we blend in very well, you know what I mean right, God?

I will be missing a lot of practices though.

During our holiday trip overseas.

That would be 1 :D and 1 D: . :D

God, I got my new glasses! :D

I really like them, thank you!

Tomorrow is the dance camp, have to go pack soon!

I am quite excited, but also quite nervous for Appreciation Night.

God please help me to stop fluttering and stuttering! :D

I HAVE to do this right. :D

Okay, I guess I will have to go back to my homework now.

Still got lots more to do.

God, I feel so guilty for not having the time to reply Eunice letter!

Please explain to her for me!

To Eunice!

I am so awfully sorry I have not replied to you!

I already wrote half of it but I have not completed it yet thanks to my homework!

Sorry to keep you waiting! I WILL do it, sooner or later!

Thanks for being such a good and caring friend!

I appreciate you!

Okay,

Bye God!

LUV ya.

2009-11-11T23:10:00.002-05:00

Dear God,

HELP ME!

I don't know what to do.

I am stranded - help me O God!

Please help me trust in you, help me make the right decision.

I want to be able to excel in everything I do.

May your peace that surpasses all understanding be on me.

I love you.

Love,

Claire.

2009-10-28T23:47:00.002-04:00

Hello God,

Sorry that I didn't write to you for several days now.

I got back my report book today.

It was...reasonably okay, I guess.

I AM SUPER SUPER EXCITED FOR MY HOLIDAY!

especially anqi's birthday! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

My ah-girl ahhhhhhhhhhh! (Written by anqi herself)

Okay, just ignore that.xD

I would like to share this very meaningful prayer.

I promise God I will remember the Serenity Prayer:

God grant me the serenity,

To accept the things I cannot change;

Courage to change the things I can;

And wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

Enjoying one moment at a time;

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

Taking as he did, this sinful world

As it is, not as I would have it;

Trusting that He will make all things right

If I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life

And supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.

Amen

Okay, An Qi is hurrying me again and again, so I shall...

BYE BYE!

Bye again God.

Claire. <3

2009-10-16T03:03:00.002-04:00

HIHIHI God!

LONGGGGGGGG time no see! :D

How are you? xD

WOO HOO!

My EOYs are over!

I just cannot get over the fact that I am SO free now, so happy.

It made me guilty to watch TV yesterday.

I LOVE this time of the year, so wonderful.

God, yesterday was like the best day ever since a long long time ago!

I played and played and played piano for like almost four hours? I think.

A new record for me I guess. :DDDD

Yup, later we are going airport to pick my god parents up.

I CANNOT WAIT FOR DECEMBER 6 TO COME!!!

Holiday, holiday, holiday!

Oh can anyone see a slight difference in the colour of the '!' above? The last one is a different colour...

Hee.

Alright,

I gottago now God, bye bye!

ILUVU. :D

2009-09-29T09:33:00.002-04:00

Hi God!
Okay,
NOTE TO YOU AND TO MY FRIENDS! :D
My humble little blog will be on 'hibernation' mode all the way until after End-Of-Year Exams.
Which means, God, sadly not as many diary entries until the end of the year... D:
STILL,
TAGS are most welcome and WILL be REPLIED sooner or later! :D

Well, I guess this is it.
Seeya soon everybody!
God bless to all my friends for your exams! :D

I still love you God, don't forget that. xD

bYE!

P.S. Today was home econs test. Did really well! Thank you God! :D

2009-09-13T23:56:00.007-04:00

Dear God,
Yesterday I made agar agar again! :D
Let me upload the pic. Heehee!
Okay the picture on the bottom is the one before I added the sea coconut thingy.
See? You can see the 2 layers more distinctly right? :D
The pic on the top is after I added the sea coconut cocktail fruit. The goey thing at the bottom is the honey from the sea coconut.
The first layer is actually transparent agar with rose syrup, while the second is transparent agar with guava juice. Combined together, this is VERY SWEET. Rose syrup agar is already sweet, guava juice is sweet, the sea coconut thing is sweet, there is sweet honey, and I also added sweet sugar. xD
God, Shalynn would love this. Haha.
You know God, the sea coconut fruit on top is actually in a flower shape decoration, but for the first agar agar in my previous post, say hwee said that it looked like a waving teddy bear. AND IT DOES!:D
Okay God, that's all for now!
Bye.

2009-09-09T01:58:00.000-04:00

Hello God,
I feel afraid that I cannot finish my homework! Especially math and LSCEP. For Math there is simply too much while for LSCEP I am still horribly stuck with Photoshop! God please help me!

Oh, I was practicing how to make my agar-agar for the home econs practical test just now. I think, God, my agar-agar has totally strayed off the recipe that I found on the internet. My recipe has to do with baby pink agar, and mine is like... yellowy? Yeah, let me show you.

Yup, it does look a little pink, but my recipe is supposed to be VERY pink and I changed the choice of ingredients. I needa change the choice of colours too. You cannot actually see the two different layers distinctly right God?
But this tastes good! I added in guava fruit juice to the agar-agar to give it taste and some pink colour. Inside the fruit juice there were aloe vera bits too, so when I bit into the agar I could taste the guava and the aloe vera. See the flower design on top? That was made with sea coconut - the cocktail can thingy.
I didn't use the whole packet, I only used half, with 500ml of water only. It was just the right size! Yay I was so happy.

On the whole, I would give declare this practice a SUCCESS because it tasted and looked appetising to me and my family. Also, it stayed within the time frame! Thank you God.
The next time I make, I am going to add different ingredients to try to make the colours more colourful.
ON TO SUCCESS!

Well, back to homework. God please take away this headache of mine, I need to concentrate!
Okay, Bye God!

Update on History Food tasting Tomorrow!

2009-09-07T04:03:00.000-04:00

Hi God,
Again, this post is for my mates in the history food project. Thanks God for being understanding!
Hey Girls,
UPDATE!!!!
Here is our plan and route.
As planned, my mom will be fetching us.
However, because An Qi's parents have some problems regarding her going home, I have changed the order of the places that we will be visiting. Note: The places DO NOT CHANGE. Just the order, so this should not affect you much. :D
Thus...

First Destination:
Claire's dish:
Sin Kee Famous Chicken Rice
Blk 40A Commonwealth Ave
Cooked food centre

Second destination:
AnQi's dish:
Joo Siah Bah Kut Teh
Blk 347 Jurong East Ave 1
Market and Food centre

Third destination:
Lynn'S dish:
Fong Chicken curry puff
Blk 448 Clemanti Avenue 3
#01-45 Clementi Central
Market and Food centre

Fourth Destination:
Shalynn's dish:
ABC brickworks roti prata

Last destination:
Say Hwee's dish:
The original katong laksa
Oueensway shopping centre
Yup, so huh.
FINALLY. I worked on this problem for hours.

Oh after that, all of you going home can follow anqi, who will take a bus back to redhill mrt (the one at school) then you can decide if you want to take a bus or continue mrt from there.

Please tag in the tagbox to reply!
Yupps.
Bye God!
Claire

DRASTIC CHANGE OF PLAN FOR HISTORY PROJECT!

2009-09-06T11:06:00.000-04:00

Dear God,
This post is for my History food project Gals!
hI PEEPS,
This is VERY URGENT.
As you know AnQi has sent you all the finalized route thingy. But my parents are EXTREMELY concerned because:
1)Nobody will entertain us at those restaurants
2)They will all be TOO BUSY
3)They will not allow us to take photos because of culinary secrets of some reason.

So I and my parents have come up with a new route and new plan.
We will change all those that are restaurants/shops into hawker stalls.
So:

First destination:
Shalynn's dish:
Remains the same - Jurong East Best Crispy Roti prata
ABC BRICKWORKS market

Second destination:
Remains the same too - The original katong laksa
Oueensway shopping centre
*Although this is not a hawker, we should just go and try out.

Third destination:
Claire's dish:
CHANGED!!!
Sin Kee Famous Chicken Rice
Blk 40A Commonwealth Ave
Cooked food centre
Tue-Sun

Fourth destination:
Lynn'S dish:
CHANGED!!!
Fong Chicken curry puff
Blk 448 Clemanti Avenue 3
#01-45 Clementi Central
Market and Food centre

Last destination:
AnQi's dish:
CHANGED!!!
Joo Siah Bah Kut Teh
Blk 347 Jurong East Ave 1
Market and Food centre

Yupp. This is so to prevent excessive money and time wastage!
Oh and AnQi don't worry, you don't need to redo the whole thing.
MY MOM WILL BE FETCHING US!
WooHoo!
Because this is hawker centres mah, so she can still wait in the car for us.

So, on tuesday after math remedial, ALL OF YOU please wear and change into home clothes and meet at the FOYER.
In case those who are not going for the math remedial come earlier, my mom's car is the bright yellow one. Very easy to spot. xD

Also after the last destination, my mum will fetch you gals to the Jurong East MRT station.

OH AND LYNN NO NEEDA CALL THE HAWKERS ALREADY. WE WILL JUST GO THERE AND YEAH.
AND ONE MORE THING... Bring along about 10 dollars each, in case. You will pay for your own dish.

FOLLOWING THAT... Have all of you read the Mr tham instruction sheet?
It says that we must have at least 5 book sources and 10 web sources.
So each of you have to go to the library and borrow any food book. ANY ONE ABOUT THE FOOD CULTURE OF CHINA/INDIA/MALYSIA/INDONESIA OR ABOUT CHINESE/INDIAN/MALAY/HYBRID FOODS WILL DO! :D

Can right?
Please tag on my tag box to reply!

Okay bye GOd, its eleven thirty again. Yawn.
Claire

2009-08-31T23:53:00.000-04:00

Dear God,
Yesterday was Teachers' Day and ACES day celebration. It was super FUN!
In the morning after national anthem and school song in the parade square, three different sec four classes led us in their class dances. They stood on tables set up at the perimeter of the parade square to demonstrate and some took to the stage to explain the dance moves.
First up was 4C3. Their dance was kinda cool. Almost all who stood on the tables were our dance seniors. :D

Next was 4G2. Their dance was quite easy but I could not really understand what they were saying. Hee.

Following that was 4S2a. Glenda took to the stage with Karen as the leader. I think, God, Karen did quite a good job of explaining the movements because I could understand her. :D. This part was also quite funny because before they went on stage, Karen suddenly approached Steph (who was sitting in the front row in front of Say Hwee and I) to take a video for her. Then she say Say Hwee and asked her instead. When Say Hwee was filming, it was hilarious because she was like "Claire! Claire! How to zoom out? I zoomed in too much and I can't come out!" Then because she was so nervous and was shaking, amy guided her arms and steered her around. It was so funny!

Next we learned the 'school dance'. It was quite easy. :D

After that we proceeded to the hall for Teachers' Day performance.
This consisted mainly of the sec four classes putting up skits to imitate their teachers. One word: HILARIOUS!
I saw Glenda trying to act as a chemistry teacher. She kinda suited that role I guess.
Shu Zhen acted as a math teacher who talked very fast. She was VERY good! Even though she talked like a bullet train, she wasn't mumbling or inaudible. I could actually hear every word she said! That was awesome.

The sec two dancers danced this dance that the sec fours showed us before. I think. Anyway, it was very elegant and pretty. I want to learn this dance! :D

Yeah so that was about it. We were released after that. Elyse and I went to Pei Hwa. I saw my friends and teachers, though we were not allowed in the staff room. Sad! I managed to pass them my gifts in the end though.
Eliana has GROWN! Now she is taller than me. Amazing! :D

Oh God, now I am going to do my math homework. Please help me to be able to understand and be able to do it.
I love you. :D
Bye!

2009-08-25T03:24:00.002-04:00

Dear God,
Today... I got back another two of my exam papers.
Home Econs and Mathematics.
Home Econs:
22-and-a-half/40.
I don't think this one was really good because I passed by two marks, but I think it was a good try.

Mathematics:
This is the worst God, I FAILED so horribly! D:
12/40. God, but there is no use crying over spilt milk now.
I promise to:
1. Practice and practice even more!
2. Be strong and not cry.
3. Be thankful for my results.

Thank you God, anyway, for this paper and my marks. I also want to thank you for all my other papers, either good or bad. Thank you God!

I still love you.
Claire.

In EVERTHING, give thanks'.

2009-08-23T02:31:00.000-04:00

Dear God,
I learnt a very important lesson in church today. We have to GLOW for Jesus!
That is so true, God.
Oh and recently we have been getting back our common test papers. So far, my results are... not that good, but I will try to be contented! :D After all, I did my best right God?
Science - 30/40 A1
(At first I got 31 but teacher marked wrongly. I was quite sad when I had to minus off one mark from my score, but I got an honour point too! Thank you God for comforting me!)
Chinese - 67/ ? B3
I cannot exactly remember 67 upon what, but this was pretty bad though...
Okay, I got to run for piano lesson now, BB!
Bye God.

2009-08-14T00:05:00.004-04:00

Dear God,
YAY! COMMON TESTS ARE OVER!!! :DDDDD
Cool now the only thing to wait for are the results... later I am so going to beg mummy to bring me go kai-kai:).
Next week I am going to stay at home for 3 days, from monday to wednesday for e-learning. The
only thing that I worry about is that I do not know how to operate the assignments and stuff!
YAY! TODAY IS FRIDAY!!
It seems as if most fridays are my best days. XD
So now Miss Goh An Qi is disturbing me while I am trying to type.
Thank you God for helping me with my CT!!!
Let me give a review on every subject.

1st day- Chinese paper:
I think this was quite okay. Better than that of the previous chinese tests. I nearly ran out of time, but thank God, after skipping to the pianduansuoxie I managed to finish it on time. Phew.
2nd day- Science Paper
Thanks to you God, I found this paper rather okay. I was stuck at a few questions, yah but I managed to finish on time and I could remember the stuff that I revised for!

3rd day- Math and History
Math:
This paper was difficult, and I do not know why. I spent so much time on the front few questions that I had no time to do the others... :( but I skipped to do the construction first. Most likely God, I think I got part a correct and part b wrong. Arrgh, but anyway thank you for such a hard paper though. I have to practice more!

History:
Now this was practically worth screaming about. The day before my history paper I practiced my PEELs and PEECKs by picking random questions on the history funpack book to do. I did 3 questions. The next day, I flipped open the test paper to find out that:
1. There were only 3 questions in the paper.
2. ALL 3 were the exact same ones that I had practiced and scrutinized so hard the day before.
God, my head was screaming hallelujah over and over. I was so happy!
THANK YOU GOD!

4th(and last) day- Home Econs:
This paper was... I do not know how to describe. The first page was cool and easy, except for one question. From the second page to the second-last page, I began to experience problems.
1) I could not remember the vital information that I had studied.
2) I wanted to write something down, but did not know how to phrase it.
So what could I do in such a situation of exam stress? I PRAYED, and PRAYED and PRAYED. Everytime I came upon a 'stucked' question I would pray. Somehow seconds later the answers came. THANK YOU GOD AGAIN!
The last page was easy. :D

So, that was how my common tests went. :D
Bye God.

2009-08-06T09:42:00.000-04:00

Hello God,
Long time no see! :D
Common tests are coming up God, I am worried. Seriously!
I mean, today I got back a lot of class tests and they were bad.
Science: 15/20 ( This one was an achievement from previous ones though)
Math: 9/20
History Class Test 2(this was the worst): 3/10(or was it upon 12?)
History Graded assignment: 5/10?

So as you can see God, math and history are the worst for now. I do not know why my history is like that. I enjoy history lessons a lot and I understand all the facts and everything, it should be that I wrote out of point... :(
Arrgh God can you help me?
Schoolwork is seriously such a mess now.
God, HELPPPP!!!!
BYE!

P.S. Oh and God I am performing for the NDP dance tomorrow! :D Superr exited! Please help me to be able to dance well, I don't want to trip over my own feet again like the last time. :D

2009-08-02T06:27:00.000-04:00

Dear God,
Hi! How are you?
Haha. God, now I am going to do my Math homework, Please give my wisdom to do do them well. Then later I will have to do my art homework.
Ohh! God, I forgot to tell you! I composed a new piece!
Its in french, Signes de la Mer(Songs of the Sea). Unfortunately, there is something wrong with blogger, so I cannot post it up.
Ohh, and Amy is having her piano exam tomorrow, please give her swift and nimble fingers and sharp ears to do well in this exam. Help her not to feel anxious about anything, but to feel your presence be with her.
Thank you God for being with Shalynn during her triathlon yesterday. I hope she did well!
Arrgh, anyway, bye God!
<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

2009-07-29T22:03:00.002-04:00

Dear God,
Sorry that I didn't write to you for a few days. I was really BUSY. And I mean BUSY, BUSY. So yesterday was my HMTL oral. God, I think it was quite bad because I read lotsa wrong words and my conv. was just as bad, or even worse. Arrgh I have done the best I could God, the rest I leave it to you okay?
There is tingxie today again God. Yesterday I was feeling so unwell after coming back home form school, but thank you God for SUSTAINING me to finish learning my tingxie. OH NO, but God please help me to remember all the words.
Thank you God,
gtg.
LUVYA.

2009-07-24T06:00:00.002-04:00

Dear God,
I found this new song! And it is so touching and nice! Especially yesterday, when I was panicking because I did not bring a few of my stuff home to do. Thank you God, for giving me such a relief.
ILUVU!

So here are the lyrics:

You're the way when everything goes so wrong
I look to You and I belong
Safe within Your hands

On the TV every night I (we) see
A world without love, world without peace
It makes me look to You
You're the answer

I know You can hear me, Lord
And I pray that You would heal my world

You're keeping me strong,
As I'm standing up for You
You're keeping me strong
As I'm following the truth
I'm never gonna back down
Give up living for You

Jesus You came not just for me but for
Every one else so they can see,
see Your love, Lord

I wanna live, I wanna be like You
Making a change, telling the world
All about Your love
You're the answer

I know You can hear me, Lord
And I pray that You would heal my world

You're keeping me strong,
As I'm standing up for You
You're keeping me strong
As I'm following the truth
I'm never gonna back down
Give up living for You

You're the answer .

This is SO nice, I even put it on my playlist.
Bye God!
P.S.I really need your grace and mercy, God, help me! :D

Oh, and the day before I was doing quiet time, and that chapter was about 'A heart marked by purity'. So I shall share some stuff that I find very useful.

PH:
" Do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you?"
1 Corinthians 6:19

" You were bought for a price"
1 Corinthians 6:20

Purity in both thoughts and words:
" Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths."

"Whatever is pure...think about such things"
Philippians 4:8

The book says
'We are to talk about things that are helpful for building others up. Whether we acknowledge it or not, what we allow ourselves to think will sooner or later be expressed by our mouths.'

Generally,
- Your physical purity is something very important and should be preserved at all costs.
- Your mental purity is where it all starts. What you think greatly determines how you behave.
- Your spiritual purity deals with your heart. The heart of a woman after God's own heart is pure heart, a heart that desires to be pure.

So God, thank you for giving me such great lessons on purity! I know purity is something I have to work on.
Thank you God, once again, for bringing this valuable book into my life.
Bye God!

Source:
'A young woman after God's own heart'
by
Elizabeth George
Referred on:
24 July 2009, 6.35 p.m.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR BOOK!

2009-07-20T19:35:00.002-04:00

Dear God,
Hi! How are you? :D
These few days I have been hooked up with nice songs.
Such as hillsong kids ' Breathe'.

I love the lyrics for the chorus.

"Breathe in my life, breathe in my soul.
Give me love to love someone. Show me your way,
show me your truth, holy spirit flow through me.
I love you, I need you more, I love you Lord."
It is just so nice! I sing it everyday in the shower.

Oh God, today is the racial harmony costume competition. And I brought this totally non-ethnic dress to school that cannot be worn because it is just... not ETHNIC.
Aiyah, nevermind. Well, the math bell is going to go soon, so BB God!
LUV YA.

2009-07-19T03:48:00.003-04:00

Dear God,
I got a pet!
Okay it is not really a pet, but...
It's a PLANT!
It is a small fittopia plant, so gorgeous!
And guess what God, don't laugh but I gave it a name!
J-O-Y. Joy! Isn't it a fabulous name?
Cool right? I shall post a picture of her.
There.
Oh gosh, I put the picture too huge. :P
So anyway God, this is my first ' living' responsibility!
Thank you God for giving me Joy! :D
So God, I had better go back to my homework cos Chris and Xuan are cming soon.
Bye God!

2009-07-16T19:39:00.002-04:00

Dear God,
Today is the PBL presentation day! I am a bit nervous larh, cos I am supposed to do the introduction. God please help me!!!!!!!!!! I was rehearsing last night while lying in bed. And I realised that sometimes when I talk too fast I will stumble over my words. Argghghghghghgh! God I am getting HEEBIE JEEBIES! God please help me arrgh... Just now I was like out of tune. Okay I am not singing, but God you know what I mean! :( So now I guess I will just stop worrying and trust in you....

So anyway, yesterday I nade up my mind not to join the NDP performance. Thank you God for helping me realise what mom was talking about and helping me make the right decision. I was upset yesterday.... BUT i think God, I shall TRUST in you, once again.

So God, I have to go now for the PBL presentation. See you later!
Luv ya!
Claire.

2009-07-14T19:13:00.002-04:00

Dear God,

Yesterday while waiting for mummy at the foyer, I was typing out my post for yesterday, then when I wanted to post there was an error and the whole thing I took so long to type was GONE!

So anyway, the important parts of yesterday conversation were:
Home Economics!
Yesterday we made Afternoon tea cuisine. Mainly:
English sweet tea
Sausage buns.
I made the tea while Sing Ying, my partner made the buns.
It was the first time I made tea! So here were the steps I took:
First, I rinsed the measuring cup. That was easy, because I always do dishes at home.
Then, I had to attach a tea bag to the cup. That was quite hard because I was afraid that I would tear the bag. So fyn helped me. Thanks fyn!
Then I put the sugar in the cup. That was easy too.
Then it was time to put hot water. It was kind of scary, that one, because the water was very hot and we used the water cooler with a hot function. But Amy helped me.. Thanks Amy!
So I stirred it all up and poured it into two tiny cups. I kept dripping the tea. Haha.
So that was my first Home Econs lesson.

Then later I stayed back to help witht the class decoration thingy.
In the end the exterior of the classroom was finished and it looked like a kindergarten classroom - in the good way, of course, It WAS SO PRETTY AND COLOURFUL.

Yeahh, so here I am sitting in the classroom, the morning rain so heavy outside. But it feels very cooling! Thank you God for this weather.

But my ears are not getting any better God, although I went to Dr Yap already. I think it is very congested in there. God, please heal me! I can't hear out of my right ear.

Alright God, I had better save battery.
Byeebye!

2009-07-13T05:34:00.002-04:00

Dear God,
Here are my Tag replies :
yangtong: Oh oops, here's my url {:
Claire: Thanks!
yangtong: Omg. First blog I know of ever dedicated to God <3 LINK ME CLAIRE {:
Claire: Haha. I am what you call a very dedicated christian. Hee.
eliana: oh yesh, link me!
Claire: Okay, sure!
eliana: ooh! yeah you're not nerdy!! guess wat i started a 'dear god' diary this year... but write very little.
Claire: HAHA, cool. XD
:)ELYSE:): Aye, I don't think youre nerdy. COOL BLOG. TAGGEDD! ;DDDD
Claire: Haha, thanks!
'{♥}anqiシ: if i dun help you you already no blog liao lah!!! XD
Claire: Yep me know. Except I do not know how to credit you. Teach me!!!
'{♥}anqiシ: HAHA.shalynn, i helped claire create the blog but she didn't CREDIT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D:
Claire: Yepp, thanks! Must teach me hor, otherwise no credit for you! :)
SHALYNN: OMG! WHO HELP YOU WITH THIS BLOG?
Claire: Well, Anqi did. A LITTLE ONLY LARHH. But thanks anyway AnQi! :)
SHALYNN:CLAIREEEE! YOU HAVE A BLOG! I CANNOT BELIEVE IT! AHHH!
Claire: Why? Is it very surprising? :D Go read my first post.

Funny right? Everybody seems to be so surprised that I have a blog.
Okay the other taggs were older, and there are too many anyway. :P
Bye God, I gotta redo my art piece. :(
Seeya soon.
Btw, thanks for your help with the TINGXIE.
Hopefully, I didn't fail. Haha.
Bye!

2009-07-12T19:48:00.003-04:00

Dear God,
There is TINGXIE today! Good thing I managed to learn it on time yesterday!
You know, while the others were playing and screaming at Bryna's birthday party I was cooping up myself in a corner learning TINGXIE. But I managed to finish learning in the end. Haha. So I played too.
Yays God, Dad has booked tickets for the plane trip to Australia and I am SOOOOOO excited! It
has been 7 years since I last went there, superr excited!
Last night I was dreaming of my Australia trip when I went there 7 years ago - I was only 6 years old. I remember the plane ride was fun, except for the part where we landed and there was pressure in my ears, which was painful. Haha!
Here is what I am going to do on the 6 hours on the plane.
1st hour - Play some computer games.
2nd hour - Do some of my holiday homework
3rd hour onwards - sleep, because our flight is the nighttime one.
What I am really looking forward to is the time spent WAITING to board the airplane. Dad says that there are free cinemas in Terminal 3 for people to watch while waiting. Cool! Might go catch some movies there.
Aiyah, but God, the trip is in Dec. and already I am too excited!
Thank you God for giving me this opportunity, in the meanwhile, help me to concentrate on my studies!
Bye bye, gottago!
Claire.
P.S. Help me with my TINGXIE okay?

EXTRA!
Well God, I think I shall talk a little bit more, since the science teacher is not here yet.=P
Yupp, when I went to Australia 7 years ago I sat on this horrible RIDE, which was a BIG mistake I tell you. I really regretted it. But it is funny to think about now.
At first I thought it was just a ghost train ride, judging from the name - Scooby Doo's ghost ride. So I innocently tugged at my Daddy's hand and pulled him in. When we were queing up for the ride though, I began to have the HEEBEE JEEBIES. I heard people screaming inside, and I was having second thoughts about this ride. But I don't know why, I somehow made it all the way to the front of the line and into this cart-like thing .
At first it was kind of fun. The cart went slowly, and there were a few thrilling stuff like a huge axe swinging towards us. THEN the nightmare started.
The cart started climbing a track. CHUG-CHUG-CHUG-CHUG-CHUG. Then suddenly as my stomach lurched, the cart rolled and twisted like a maniac. Then I realised with horror that this ride was a horrific indoor roller coaster! Ohh, the thought struck me with realisation. My dad was grabbing me so hard 'cause he thought I was going to fall out of my seat. I had just made it through the height minimum , and already the seat was twice my size. For the rest of the ride, let me just say that it was terrible. We twisted and turned, lurched and spun. It was too much for a tiny six- year- old.
I opened my mouth to scream but nothing came out.
I tried to think of nice things, like high-5 and flowers, but to NO avail.
So, I did what I knew.
I cried.
SO the whole ride, I cried and cried buckets of tears.
Then suddenly it stopped. I stopped crying and dried my tears. I thought my nightmare was over. Then suddenly the cart lurched backwards and I was almost thrown off my seat. The spinning started again.
I cried again, what could I do?
Finally, FINALLY, it mercifully stopped.
My dad took me outside. My legs were wobbly and trembling.
My mother saw the state that I was in and started laughing.
Soon everyone started laughing.
And so that was the day that I first experienced a adult roller coaster.
Not exactly enjoyable, I guess.

2009-07-10T02:41:00.000-04:00

Dear God,
I have created a blog!:D
Remember that I used to write diary entries and store them in my computer?
Well, there is gonna be a shortage of space in the memory of my computer if I continue doing that,so might as well just create a blog to put them in right?
Heehee.

Yeah so just now I was taking my maths test.
It was surprisingly easy because I have always thought that all my other math tests were harder.
Thanks God for helping.XD
My math teacher was like quite surprised when I called her 15mins before the end time of the test.
:)
I think today is one of the happiest days of my life! You know what God? Let me tell you what I went through today....
I said my Comm Arts speech! And I did quite well too... XD
I did my Math Test! Which I think is quite easy.... Thanks again God!
I lost my wallet.... but found it again later! Well, actually I left it in the car. I should have been feeling nervous for most of the day right? But weirdly I felt this strange calmness over me. AND I did'nt panic at all! :D
i CREATED MY BLOG!
Yup, so here's my first post.
I have NEVER, EVER done this before in my life. Haha.
:D

BYE God.
Claire.